meet me at the hotel room
Ola readers !


As ive promised, I would put up the pictures of me when I was at Jeram Linang. SO, fulfilling my promise, here's the pictures :)

Enjoy A-holes ! haha


























Damn nice right the view ? I know, hihi.

Loves. Out.

Deeep man, that's deep, youre deep


WOW, i know. Quite shocking huh. Well i do have my own reasons on putting it in public and even had the idea of writing that down in paper. As everyone know, I will be having my SPM exam this year and maybe some of you knows about the family conflict that I have.

So, it's very sad bcse I obviously have to apologies to everyone literally to get the blessings. But I cant apologies verbally to papa. So yea, maybe I'll give him a call or just send a text message later on.

By posting the photo up there doesn't really mean that I love papa and I don't love my mum. Well, I can say 'I love you, ma' to my mum like every single minute but my dad ? Hah. A joke maybe.

So yea, Papa,

I will be having my BigHumongousCrucialSignificantEssential exam this year and I hope that I can have your blessing. Im sorry for the wrong things I did. I didn't get the chance to 'salam raya' with you the other day bcse I was too busy panicking on what should I do. I waited to lock eye contact with you so that I can wave but you didn't look. It's okay. I love you okay papa.

___________________________________________________________________

Sadcase.

Ala maa, I love you too, hihi :)

At school all the form 5's and form 3's had the Majlis Restu Ilmu where all of us had to salam and ask for forgiveness from the teachers. I was strong at first but I failed to control my emotions when it was the turn to salam the pengetua. From that point I started crying. Oh gosh, gay sial sue. Well I did A LOT of sins towards the teachers. hehe. small2 sins only.

I am currently coughing like a mad cow and my voice suddenly turned into something smexxy. haha. Not that I am, my voice, I said.

18 Days towards 18th Oct

&

49 Days towards SPM


Damn.

Im femished. Gotta find something to eat. Tarrra.

Loves. Out.

p/s : to abg kakak mama : I am sad inside. Chey. I love you guys. DON'T laugh.

I can feel then emptiness already
I WANT YOU TO BE HERE, bloody hell.

My steewwpit cat ;)

Loves. Out.



OMG I WANT TO RE-DO !
About what i said in the previous post, SCRATCH EVERYTHING. I love him and I hope that nothing can come between us. CHEY. haha. So honey, be happy in France and i want a souvenir ! haha.

You guys wanna know what happened ? Yea we fought on our annie but something came up and I met him at Sunway. We made up. He came to me tho. Haha. And yea we're okay. I maybe cn get a bit too sensitive upon him going away for a long long time. hm.

So yea, have fun I love you :)

Loves. Out.


Happy Anniversary darl
I Love You, Nik Syazwan

It has been a year now since Ive known you. Quite a long time right. Yea. But Im nt going to type about what happened on the midnight of the 25th, dont worry. I just wanna say, maybe going to France is the best thing that can happen fr us. You can forget about me. You cn build a new life. Don't worry abt me since I am finishing high school soon.

Things just dont work out the way we wanted it to be. It is not anyone's fault, you are being you. I cant blame you for that. If i really don't mean that much of anything to you then it's fine. I won't protest.

I just wnt you to be happy alright. If things will eventually work out in the end then that's very good. But if it doesn't then i believe we both will be just fine.

I love you honey. Be happy.

Loves. Out,

selected memory empty
"Yeah I wanna dance with somebody, with somebody who loves me"
Hooyeah just got back from Kelantan. It sure was hell but I managed to pull everything together, *applause please* haha. SO, this raya differs a lot from my other raya bcse we celebrated it in Kelantan :)
The second raya's night, I went to go lepak with Nazmi, UK and his cousins. It was okay, quite exhilirating for me bcse at that time I missed subang and my friends. So it was okay, after releasing all the tensions with the friends, went to mamak with he siblings and cousins. OKAY la, teehee.
The third raya we went to this waterfall called Jeram Linang. It was hell fun ! I will upload the pictures once I get my hands on them.
And we went back home on the fourth of Syawal. Hurrah. Arrived at Subang around 4 in the morning. Quite a raya !
Well the duit raya was okay, more than I expected. haha. Thank god.
I am supposed to get ready now to go to KL but omg how lazy I am.
Enjoy the photos, Tadaa.
Second Raya
Also second raya















All first raya :)
Loves. Out.









Selamat Hari Raya Bitchess
SO, hey
I will be leaving for Kelantan in another 3 hours, isn't that terrfying ? A 10 hour journey really has it's effect on me. Seriously dude. The cold-ness, my phone batt will surely go off, the urge to pee when there's no toilet and when i have no urge to pee when the toilet is right smack in front of my face. That's so typical. The cramps, and the stuffs that I'll experience every year -.- God help me.
Ho well, I can't avoid it right. Just pray on my safety for the whole 10 hour journey. God damn.
Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin :)
I apologies deeply if my writings offended anyone in any point, it was just for the entertainment.
And for the non-muslims, Enjoy your holiday !
Bye.
Loves. Out.

Im a press conference, you a conversation
My topic for the day. Raya '08

:)


TOMORROW'S A HOLIDAAAAYYY ! hoooyeaaah !

Seriously I can't tell you how it feels to be freed from the torturing exams. It's goood it's good. Oh well, I'm going back to Kelantan tomorrow evening and I don't know how many times I've to repeat about the propostrous and dreadful experience that I will be experiencing during this Raya. I literally have been blabering about how hard it is to go back there because, hm you guys, it is called Kelantan. I just need someone to tell me that going back to Kelantan is not a burden after all. NOW, please somebody TELL ME. I just need something to ease up the tension. Haha, so much drama for just going back to the hometown for Raya. Okay imma stop whining now, *smileess :)

I haven't pack my bag yet, ugghhhhhh the agony that I will go through. Just be ready for the post when Im back here from Kelantan. Full of complaints. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

SO, just now i did my Add maths exam and because i got the paper early enough for me to examine and memorise, it was Okay :) and i seldom or maybe never say an Okay to any Add maths paper, EVER.

AND ONE MORE, It is kind of irritating to go back to your hometown expecting to get a looottt of duit rayas but lastly, all the kampung peoples will never give out more than RM2.00. Cheapos. Luckily I will kunjung-mengunjungi my families around Kota Bharu, so Im expecting morreeee *hugeee grinn. hahah.

Johan once asked me when I was whining about getting small amount of duit raya, he said ;


Johan : Kau ni nak raya sbb apa ah ?
Sue yg come lote : duit raya,



Hahaha. Nanti Allah marah, tak dapat duit raya langsung sme kne curi, pdn muka.

I hope not.

HO WELL, I LOVE to whine. Here's another whine, I don't care losing anyone, really. But the time Ive spent, the dignity Ive sacrificed, all wasted for you and honestly i feel that it wasn't worth any sweat that i've secreted at all. It is called 'serik'. And I guarantee that the other one can do any best damn thing for you later. Cheers :)

I guess you readers must be insipid upon hearing my babbles about Kelantan, duit raya, agonies, hahaha. It is very typical of me to do that.


Okay i guess this post has been a long post, and my back is aching. Bye peoples.

Loves. Out.

What If I ?
Hey my man, I AM SO BORED AND FULL. hehe. Just ironed my school uniform. Ugh, cant wait to end school and forget about the uniforms. Its killing me man. Oh ya, I was reminded about this song just now and oh how i love the wordings :p
Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call
I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out
4 in the morning
On the corner rolling
Doing my own thing
Girl go head and be...
Go run the streets
come home late say sleep like em
Creep like em
'Front with ya friends
Act hard when you're with em' like em'
Keep a straight face when ya tell a lie
Always keep an air-tight alibi
What he don't know won't break his heart
It's Ciara-Like a boy
Oh ya chck out this BMW Z4 Coupe :) Wait till I drive em. HAHA. I know, its just a little girls dream car. No harm done right ?
To be sad enough and know that Syazwan won't be here for our 1st Anniversarry this 26th and my birthday this 3rd Dec because he'll be off to France then Japan. Damn you boy !
Bye, tomorrow's a school day, how exhilirating -.-
Loves. Out.

im'ma tell you, oh it's real honey !
I am getting much more or less UNcreative of posting interesting blog nowadays. Apparently my head is jam-packed with "Integration" or "Binomial" or "Linear law" or anything that has to do with Add Maths. My official rival that has been declared by myself today. Sadly I will be taking that subject during my

aSsPeeamM

The horror right, I am so very much aware of it.

Today I watched two old movies that catches a hella lot of my attention. It was



AND



It has really been awhile since i watched that movie and,

OHMYGOD, i heard something outside my house and it sounded C-R-E-E-P-Y. Can i be scared now eventhough i know it's Ramadhan ? but yeah baby, i heard something alright.

Oh well, back to my story, that two movies was really attracting and interesting. I highly recommend it for all of you. Enjoy bitches.

Tommorow is a hol for Nuzul Quran and i feel very the LAZY to go to tuition. Guess what tuition ? ADD MATHS. like WHAT THE ? kan.

Syazwan asked me if i want to tag along with his mother and him to Shah Alam tommorrow. And break our fast there. But since I am still under my mum's obligation, I've to ask her permission first. That's the hardest part i might say. Ugh.

It is 15 minutes more to 2am and the fact that i KNOW if i sleep now it'll be a TREMENDOUS burden for me to wake up for sahur. What can i say, I am SO NOT a morning person. I pity my future husband.

I effing HATE the mosquitoes here because they're causing me a large amount of scars coming if i keep scratching. Which everyone knows that I'll scratch. I mean, who wouldn't ? They are called mosquitoes bite, Okay, I am literally crapping about mosquitoes and I still am. Please people, I am not crazy. Okay cutting it out.

I WANT TO SLEEP.

So goodnight. That's just the end of it.

Tadaa.

Loves. Out.


sad story
Another week of trials has went by and I can't wait for RAYAA !! hoooyeah !
I don't know why it bothered me so much to wake up in the morning these past days. I feel the HATRED was filling SUPERfast in my heart & soul. ceycey. And people, DO YOU KNOW ? I have not been fasting for about 9 days now ? My friend, named Period, knows very well that i love to eat so she's giving me a LOT of days to eat while other people is starving. hehehehe. BY THE WAY, I just finished a burger from Burger King just now.
Can you feel the jealousy ? haha
OH WELL, this monday is a holiday so I am planning to wake up LATE. Alhamdulillahh.... :)
I don't have anything nice to say now so toodles ! Off to play games. teehee.
Loves. Out.