you're vulnerable
okay ive posted wtv that is needed to be posted . did i get that rght ? haha , wtv . well , here goes .

YESTERDAY WS GREAT ! hee . only some of us knows why rghtt ? fr the frst time i got high . haha , like teyra said , tipsy ! hahahaha , dh eh . too much info .

soo i woke up around 2pm today *i know , mcm jantan !* hahaha , so went down and saw kak dah , i ws forced to mandi by mama , maaan , ahaha , well she has to do that cz if she doesnt i'll probably bathe at 6pm , so thanks to mama (:
had lunch and now im onlining . plus im bored . haih .

i'll be going to auntie mazni's house cz mama wants to ask about my home tuition fr next year -.- bsn la mcm ni ma , ish . haha i've requested mama that i want to go to boarding schl next year cz as you all know , i'll be having my SPM next year and i NEED the concentration . buutt , to my suprise mama ckp " aaahhh tkyh nk ngada ! awal2 tahun ni mama nk masukkan tknk !! ahh tkde tkde ! " well , shocking ? i know . i mean , fr god's sake ! tk pnah doh dgr mak sndri tk bg ank masuk asrama . in addition , someone like mama . ahahaha . mengutuk btl , sorry ma .

ive been wondering when will they give my pay fr the work that ive done in baskin fr the 31st that day . haha , know why ? cz im POOR now ! hmmmmmmm . SEDIH aku ,

i found out yesterday that someone told my 'mummy angkat' hee , that i like to use their or sepcifically HER money and doesnt know how to appreciate the money that has been given to me . hm , its kind of sad fr me to know that my own ****** wld say that to someone that's not family . hm , luckily she's my 'mummy angkat' and yes , suprisingly , i love her more now (:

i feel like i want to just dump all these thoughts that im having , ehem , let me rephrase , i feel like i want to dump all these NEGATIVE thoughts out masuk laut and let it hanyut anywhre but to me again . it sucks though fr me to think this way . cz i know , syaitan is everywhre ESPECIALLY in my mind now , haha , fr some reasons that i cannot tell . haih , it'll encourage me in some way to do stupid things and later i'll feel guilty . fuck stop it .

well , my past relationships that ive been in hasnt work out the way it shld . maybe cz i 'sumpah-ed' my 11-month relationship boyf , wait , i mean EX . ee disgusting oh . haih . yea , hw foolish fr me to curse him . haha . tgk2 it backfired . best gila sial . well at least not hving a perfect relationship will prevent me frm doing stupid thngs like giving in to the assholes that'll just play with my feelings . like what my ex-scandal said , "ego you dh tnggi" . haha . i know ive changed . but i think thats good . dh , enough abt my lovelife . STUDY & have fun first ya .

well , i think that're pretty much it . bye loves (:



i miss you baby :'(