finding a way
whatever that i saw just now just makes it official that i am just 35% part of this family . haih . it hurts so bad . but i know there's nothing fr me to do to just make them feel satisfied . i know everything that i do now is wrong to their eyes . it will be wrong in a way . im done . well luckily there's one more year left fr me to be quiet about it then i wont say that im leaving forever but at least a LONG vacation frm them . to look at this overall , i know part of it IS my fault but like i said , im a teenager and mostly , a normal human being . duh ill make mistakes . hm , seriously adding to what happened yesterday , im done crying and im done trying . mcm org2 melayu ckp , dh "buntu" . this is one of the reasons why i want to go to boarding schl next year . at least it'll cut down large sums of my problem . dnt you think ? yes , whatever that ive done makes them mad but its better than hurting them . like what they're doing to me . haaiiihhh !!! PENAT LAH . dh tktau nk ckp apa . mls nk fkir :((

im bored living , but i do appreciate that i woke up everyday fr the past 16 years . i hope that it'll continue fr a long time cz im not prepared to die YET , haha . im sinful i know .

loves <3