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NEW HAIR :)

2010-05-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

Puas shah ? -.-

Whats up bloggyyy blogg :D

2010-03-30T12:14:00.003+08:00

I miss blogging actually, but because of the fact that I dont blog much nowadays makes myself feels like a newbie in blogging.

I dont know what to say anymore.

My life is obviously boring. I have to find a topic to blog. A general topic.

Bye bye people, will do come back with a topic. Kena cari ilham dulu. :D

Pulau Duyung

Love the view

Shahrizal

Shakira

pictures from the roadshow. Toodles !

first impression lasts longer

2010-02-12T00:39:00.004+08:00

You are seriously playing with me right ? What is your purpose man ? Like seriously. I think I should just get it over and done with. Thanks :)

Soo, hello fellow readers.

Today was a little bit better than the rest of my dull and boring days. I woke up late, as usual, had lunch and did pretty much what i do everyday. Then later today I followed mama to Taipan bcse she wants to go to the mosque and I have to return Pizza Hut's uniform and card and so on. Ive to wait for mother till 10 so I hanged with the friends for a while.

Played pool with Leman and Raja, and I won TWO games, i think. haha. Leman said I still have a lot to practice. Yeah yeah 'mentor'. :D

I guess tmr will be just like any other boring days. I cant wait to go to work man. At least I have something better to do while earning money. RIGHHT ? gosh, I think I keep talking about the same thing in every post.

SO SAD.

I watched The House Bunny just now but due to the stupid Internet Explorer, I managed to watch half of it and I cant continue. I appreciate it Internet Explorer. Thanks for ruining my movie-watching spirit. hehe.

Ikram asked me to work with him and sell F1 tickets after CNY but Ive promised Trevor that I'd help him on selling F1's merchandise. BUT, he hasnt confirmed with me about anything. So how now ? you tell me.

Now now now now, Im eager to know who's whose Valentineeess ? hehe, since I wont be having one, I wld LOVE to hear some nice love stories from anyone. So, anybody who has some interesting Valentine's stories, spill them to me kay. I have nothing better to do. haha.

But you know what, in my point of view, I feel that you dont have to wait for that one particular day in a year to celebrate your love toward anyone right ? I mean, really, why cant you just make everyday a Valentine's day ? FOR ME, Valentine's day is like for single people to make it even more special to highlight their love and passion to anyone they fancy right ? To specialize their love as it is a very lovery dovey day. That's it !

For couples, just to make it something, they do stuffs they do everyday ? They go watch movies, have dinner and things. KAAANNN ?

You should celebrate your love everyday people, not just one day. Come on ladies and gentlemen, work with me here ! Love them everyday, I love you, You love me, We love each other ! haha okay thats a tad too far.

Oh well, for some people. Love is amazing. For some, Love is bullshit. For me, Love is just plain love.

Hahaha.

Aww look at them having Starbucks together, holding hands. Too sweet :)

Bye bye, Loveess :D

p/s : OH YA, i LOVE the song All Cried Out - Allure ft 112. LOVEEEESS <3

you make me smile

2010-02-10T16:10:00.008+08:00

What's up my man,

I am so pissed about the weather man. Why does it have to be so hot ? I am suffering here. Seriously, eventhough im in my house I can still feel the heat. EVEN BETTER, the sun shines directly towards my room, and my curtain is very thin so everyday at 8am or 9am ill be sweating, so ive to switch to another room which is very gloomy. Thank god that room is empty. Thats the reason on why I am so tanned eventhough I sit at home everyday.

Okay thats the end of my whine on the weather. hehe.

Fever is being such a bitch by coming and going as she wishes. And giving me body aches, headaches. Thanks babe, I need this. Okay I was being sarcastic ey.

Well, well. This Sunday is Valentine's day :) Love is in the air I suppose ? haha. Not for me. I dont think I will be celebrating V day this year. Id rather sit at home and do nothing. Kan kan ?

Ohmygodd. You know whaaaaat, I may be working on this 15th at KLCC and this 20th at KLIA till April. That sucks right. hehe. But at least better than wasting my time at home.

HAIH.

To pay back my absent-ness, Ill upoad some random photos kay. Bye bye.

These are the pictures of the Shell girls's reunion at Fullhouse, Sunway. It is a very sweet place to have dinner or lunch with your loved one :)

Lovely girls. <3

Fionaa :)

<3 style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> Legion. It ws awesome :)

Gasoline

Tasha <3

The bestf, HisyamtheHagrid :D

haha, wasn't ready.

These are the photos from work. Fana and I worked as promoters for Modenas. And guess where did we worked ? BATU CAVES ! haha yes. And we worked during Thaipusam. It was challenging but we gained a lot of experience :)

Very the Rempss. hahaha

Big boss :D

Baby :)

Wont wanna miss the enormous statue of the Hindu's god :)

These are from 26th Jan. Fara's birthday.

Fanabontot

Q <3

Tiya <3333 i love you so much kay. Get well soon honey.

Thats about it i guess. Loves :)

caught in a bad romance.

2010-02-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

ohmygod i cannot believe that im actually blogging.

MY LIFE IS TUMBLING UP AND DOWN THESE PAST FEW DAYS AND I AM VERY STRESSED.

if its not friends, its boys, its family and EVERYTHING.

sometimes i feel as if i can depend on nobody except my phone and the songs in it. so by that i can talk to nobody. i do have my two babies but they too have their own life to think about right so i cant actually burden them with mine.

and i decided to blog about everything just now. and so here i am.

HM. problems have been very confusing to me you know. and about studies, i cant quite make up my mind on what am i going to do. SHIT.

ALSO, i broke up with that guy fr about 2 months now. and i plan to stay single for some time now. not to be very the jiwang right but my love life is VERY messed up right now. thats why i decided not to get tied up with anybody now. not to have any feelings for anyone. push them aside yeah. all this, is bullshit.

i dont have anyone to turn toooo :(

oh ya, just for the record, my one and only grandmother passed away last friday. to be honest, i dont know how to react to it. i mean i havent lost any close relatives till now. so im very frustrated.

Al-Fatihah.

to a simple conclusion, my life is at the bottom of the wheel right now so i guess i just have to deal with it, no ?

loves out :)

Ohmygod what the hell ?

2010-01-03T18:20:00.005+08:00

Why the hell did you add me up for ? I dont even know you existed bfre this ? There's nothing that i know abt you and i assume you dnt know anything about me as well. And don't tell me it's because I talked to him on the site fr a couple of times. Please, youre just like those girls who minds about everybody else and loves sticking your nose up anybody's business. Oh gosh you are such a pest.

WELL, hello everybody ! :)

It is 6.22pm in the evening and I admit that I havent taken my bath yet. HEHE. Oh ya ! Ive work tmr, hear that, Ive WORK. hahaha ! I'll be working in Pizza Hut taipan for the time being. Yes people to earn my own MONAYH. You know the blue ones, red ones, purple ones. HAHA.

New Year ws okay but a bit pain in the ass at first, I had fun only during the countdown. Bcse of the spray thingy. Other than that, all of it was crap.

2010 has arrived, so that means a whole new year, a whole new year means a whole new life. Correct ? Ill abid to whatever that Ive agreed with myself earlier this year, I hope. Hehe. Well apart frm LIFE, I plan to take Psychology later. About the piloting, ugh, not very sure. Okay this is confusing. Ill let you guys know what'll happen to my future ogayh.

This year has also showed me who's my TRUEfriends and who's not. Who's my former bestf and who's not. Who puts Boyfriends first and who doesnt. Right. Ive a lot of bestfs who did some shits towards me and also others so, Imma put you aside and let you go on your lovely little life. Agreed ?

This is boring.

Bye.

Id fight for you, Id lie, its true

2009-12-29T23:32:00.003+08:00

I AM WILLING TO ! Hooooyyeaaaahhh ! :D

I dont know why but I FEEL SO SAD RIGHT THS MOMENT. Oh so god help me. I feel like attempting a suicide right now. CEH, ahaha but Im serious. I cant bear this feeling. I feel so DOWN to the ground. IT RHYMES so whattheheck, haha.

Tmr Ive a class reunion at Sunway. Im surprised I don't feel excited at all. I don't feel anything right now. OHMAGAAAADDD, :'(

THEN sleepover at Fana's. Thurs morning Ive a casting with Tiya and Fana. Then NEW YEAR. WHICH i dont even have any plans yet. Everything is ridiculously expensive nowadays and going everywhere is a BORE. Kill me man.

I am now currently addicted to the song Shots. Hahaha I dont know why.

Okay Imma watch GG now.

Byebye. I AM FEELING DOWN. Daaaaammnn.

Oh gosh, please

2009-12-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

HEEEYYYYYYYY

I just got back from Jengka for mama's high school reunion and it rained all the way. I was wearing baju kurung you know and imagine how i froze. I slept a LOT since I only got 2 hours of sleep yesterday. Thanks to you ! -.-

I haven't gone out for about 2 days now, YEAY ME ! Hahah, trying to be a good girl who sits at home and do pretty much nothing. Okay Ill be honest, I was sick. HAHAH, thats why I didnt went out. IM BORED OKAY PLS. SOMEONE ask me out already !!

You know who I miss right now ?

Teyra
Baby
Jiihan
Jia Yi
Classmates
Schoolmates

And that is pretty much it. Hahah, Just informing. HMMMM.

OH GOD, i SO have nothing to blog about. Since I dont pick people's problem as my topics now nor dont i pick talking BAD about people in my blog :)

Okay okay Ill give you guys something that's interesting now in my life, hehe.
Weh i adooreeee youuuuuuuuuu :D BUUUTTT, Imma wait, still, If nothing happens then I wont lose anything right ? Ive given out hints KOTT ? ahahah i dont know. Im new at this. Okay shut up.

Oh ya, i ended the relationship. It was too tiring and complicated fr me. Ive had my limits. So sorry.

Im so crappy.

Bye lah mcm ni. Sedih.

I need them bags and the money

2009-12-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

Look at my hair, I LOIKE ! Hahahah.

OKAY, let us all pray to god that I won't bore you guys with my post.

Hammhamhammmhammhamhammmhammm

GO !

Tommorrow I'll be going to Sunway with HisyamtheHagrid and Zaf i think ? I WANT MONAAYYHH !
I HOPE that Ill get at least ONE job. Last year, I applied for i think 5 shops but didn't even get one reply. Now tell me how sad is that ? VERY SAD KAAANN ?

Today's my brother's 23rd birthday soooo I am telling youuuuuu, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHERBEAR :D

Okay I don't have any idea(s) anymore.

I am trying to finish up Gossip Girls but it's getting duller by episodes. Am i right or am i right ? Heheh. SOO, bye as I want to watch GG

Loves. Out. :D

You give love a bad name

2009-12-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin' you give love a bad name

An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passion's a prison you can't break free

Shot through the heart and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
Hey, you give love a bad name

I'm sick of everything. Done and done.

Pool party has passed but it wasn't exactly a pool party since the pool was closed throughout the event. Hahah. It ws due to the drizzling rain all the way. No one is to blame yeah ?

After school life is VERY dull. I've nothing to do therefore there are nothing to blog about. This concludes to a very dull and insipid me.

Ive no topic to blog WEH !! Damn stressfull !!

Seriously, from this point onwards, no reading sue's blog anymore.

I am sad. Bye.

Jumbled Up

2009-12-17T05:32:00.002+08:00

I just got back from everywhere I might say. To say now I am freaking tired and plus tmr Ive to fetch Syazwan from the airport, Joy

I claim that tdy would be the most freakiest, lovely, tiring, funny day so far. I've gained a lot of experience from today so let me share some with you. Like what they say, sharing is caring :)

First off, I went out with Jiihan and Surya. We went straight to Mydin to buy some stuffs for Jiihan's class party. We ate lunch there and nothing much happened.

Picked Jia Yi from her house and also Tony MOEY. I like his name. And shoot straight to AC. Played some pool and some British guy asked for my number, Oh well.. you don't know who yre dealing with, HAHAHAH okay I was joking. Hanged at AC fr a long time till we have to make a move to Jiihan's class party.

I learned how to drive a manual after the class party or should I say class barbeque ? Well whatever. Haha. Waited for some time for Tony MOEY to get a car from his brother for the sake of sending off Elroy at the airport.

Tony MOEY speeded full speed towards the airport and luckily Elroy is still at Mcd KLIA when we've reached there. Fast forward, after sending Elroy we went back and wanted to get something to eat.

Instead, most of the friends wants to hang at one of the girls' house in Glenmarie. So the usual me, I ws hungry so I asked Tony MOEY to drive in Mcd's drive-thru and buy me DINNER. hahah. Went to Fiona's house then ate at the padang there.

Now this'll get better. While eating and hanging out, I just love that time and theeenn, I found out that HADI cld see 'things'. Ohhhkaaayy, fine. By the time we wanted to go home, I encountered some pretty freaky and weird things that just knocked me straight off my feet. I was about to cry but I didnt, hahah lame i know. It was REALLY REALLY scary.

SO, that ws just a little bit of my story and I cnt manage to tell all about it since it is 6 in the morning and I am too tired to even sleep.

Toodles. Bye.

xoxo

2009-12-12T04:21:00.004+08:00

Well hello !

To spend my empel time at home i decided to finish up Gossip Girls season 1 and 2. I heard that GG is mind-blowing but I managed to watch just a few here and there episodes on tv. And now I just finished watching season 1 and YES PEOPLE, the series has effected me emotionally BIG TIME. I was literally pissing off now and then for the bitches in GG. Hahaha talk about getting TOO involved in it. I want to start season 2 now but time is in my way so I suppose I'll start season 2 tmr. Teyra told me that season 2 is better than season 1 soooo, impress me :)

Tasha and I planned to go to Genting this Tues or Wed since she'll be off to Europe for a month ! That means she won't be spending her new year here but instead in Ireland I reckon. Oh it'll be a one day trip due to the school hols and obviously the hotels will be fully-booked all month. It'll be satisfying eventhough just for a day I wish. Well that's because we intend to go there and have fun rather than marketing our face there like most kids do nowadays, no offence :)

Tomorrow Yazren and I may be going to Sunway to seek for jobs that can provide us money to LIVE. Haha a bit too melodramatic ? BUT my sister said that I'd better off to find part-time jobs online as a promoter or whatever that sometimes offer RM80 per day regarding what jobs are you willing to do. To think on how am I going to go back and forth from home to Sunway then from Sunway back home. That is certainly going to cost me more money. I am in consideration. HELP.

It is 4.30 in the morning and my head is telling me to give it a rest and hit the sack already. Goodnight Subang Jayarers, (haha I told you GG has gone into me VERY deeply).

Okay enough being lame, goodnight bloggers, readers.

Loves. Out.

*Oh ya for the record, I really miss Syazwan. When is it gonna be the 18th !? Sigh*

Look at him, very retard right ? Haha, I like :)

To hell with everything, Im done

2009-12-08T17:17:00.005+08:00

Bohhh-ringgg

Honey.

You know, honestly, i do want to give a shit but things are so different kan ? Do agree with me because i know you know that it's true. Its not that now, I don't care or what not but I don't mind. If youre here, youre here. If you prefer to be there, youre there. Truthfully, I gave up but maybe you think that's childish right ? Okay then, I myself find me different from the past since I've been hanging with diff people already. Oh god, get it over with. School's out, we'll be separated till i don't know when. I personally think that it won't matter right ?

Okay this is some boring emo shit.

Changing modeee.

SCHOOL'SSS OUUTT !

Can you feel it ? Haha. Seriously i don't feel a major diff in anything. Maybe in a little tiny stuffs but it didn't give the impact that I expected before. Wow right ? Chemistry paper was such a bitch that I am now disgusted to even take a glance at the chemistry book. CEEYY. Haha. Some lot did asked me about what am i going to do after this and seriously, i don't know. Surprisingly, yeah. I planned to get a job in around January so I can at least have fun this month. Buuutt, i don't know. I hope time'll fly REALLYY slow since I don't want March to ever come near me.

We've to face the fact ! Correct ?

Typically, we planned to go to Sunway to do some interesting things, hehe, for me i might say. Then I don't know. WELL, ALVIN WANTS TO GO HOME AND STUDY. Bloody freak right ? Haha, he is actually.

Syazwan is still in Japan due to the student exchange programme that he attended. He'll be back home on the 18th Dec, hurrah ? I haven't talk to him since like 3rd Dec ? He said there isn't any coverage there so he can't contact me that often. Weird, there're coverage in France but not in Japan which is located here in Asia ? He once told me about this girl during his orientation before going to Japan, she has a crush on him. And she is now in Japan with him. Hahah, quite lame i know, I am not jealous but just anxious. Oh I hope i can trust him as much.

Enough about him,

Bye, I'll blog later when I have stuffs to blog about. Interesting stuffs ofcourse.

Loves. Out.

Worst one so far

2009-12-04T16:56:00.002+08:00

Hooyeah my birthdaaay !

Let me tell you what happened ;

One of my bestf forgot my birthday and forgot to do some other stuffs too
The boyf didn't wish me on my birthday
The boyf is in Japan for another TWO WEEKS
I didn't go out and celebrate with my friends at all
I had SPM Physics paper on my birthday
And I don't feel happy, AT ALL.

On the other hand,

I got loads of prezzies
Went to tgif with Auntie Mazni's fam and mine
Jiihan promised me to take me somewhere
My bestfs ate wih me at Mcd, although we didnt literally ate but we hung :)
i have another one paper to finish up my SPM examination
Facebook was such a darling bcse it reminded my friends and tonnes of them wished me in Facebook, THANKS A LOT <3

Now that's all. Wasn't my birthday the dearest ?

Loves. Out.

Let me see what I can do

2009-11-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

Hello,

Just found out about something. And Oh my god, I don't even give a bloody **** about what you think or what other people think about me. You were someone in my life and NOW, you're nothing. Seriously, like as if what was then meant nothing to you. Now, to me, you're nothing but a simple pile of refuse. I hate you man. I seriously despise you. People say that I should just be patient bcse eventually you'll realise who's who in your life. But currently, it doesnt matter to me anymore. You really did make me hate you. And I still do, truthfully. I wish that I didn't know you in my life. I seriously am cold-hearted towards you now.

Goodbye.

Loves. Out.

I've a confession to make

2009-10-29T12:30:00.003+08:00

And i want all of you to understand and support me through ?

YES, I admit my mouth has been a little jackass recently. No not recently but it has been very very bad for a couple of months ? weeks ? i don't know.

I curse, I gossip, I say things i shouldnt say. I can say the meanest things to people when im angry. Syazwan scolded me a few times but i ignored him.

I am changing to something that I dispise a lot.

The big exam is 19 days far and I dont want my sins to increase.

And plus, I said something about a month ago about my good friend and I'm so sorry. It won't happen again. I am truthfully sorry. I didnt mean to say it.

SO, i need my friens to support me and scold me or whatever when I say mean things about people or whatsoever.

I hate myself now :(

God help me.

Loves. Out.

See You Later Aligator

2009-10-24T00:58:00.002+08:00

I won't be updating my blog fr the whole 2 months due to my upcoming damned SPM exam. Oh how dreadful.

OH WELL, let's get this war over and done with so I can enjoy my life gracefully.

YOU CAN DO IT BABY !

SPM, bak datang !

hahahahahahahahahahahaha, wish me luck bitcheesssss

byeeee. Loves. Out.

Oh, I Love You my guilty pleasure

2009-10-03T13:39:00.005+08:00

It was the 2nd of October

15 days towards 18th October

Today is the day of my openhouse. Yaayyyy ! Hihi. Im waiting fr the right time to cook my mashed potatoes and gravy. Nyumm.

Yesterday i talked to Syazwan a several times on the internet. I am so thankful to god that humans are now getting more and more genius and intelligent. And by having that gift, they invented the internet and so on. For the reason of the ridiculously expensive calls from France to Malaysia. We talked through Yahoo messenger. How cool is thaat ? HAHA, It was totally free. I love the human abilities, haha : )

I baked cheesecake yesterday for tonight's openhouse. Do come and taste my master piece. HAHA.

And yea I've to help out. Tarra.

OH YA, fana has been matching my life with songs lately. I dont know why. Well let me tell you the songs that she've picked fr me.

You and me

We used to be together

Everyday together always

I really feel

That I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real

Well I don't want to know

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me cause it hurts

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories

Well, they can be inviting

But some are altogether

Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I

With my head in my hands I sit and cry

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are...

You and me

I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak

I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)

Don't speak

I know what you're thinking

I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me cause it hurts

Don't tell me cause it hurts!

I know what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't speak,don't speak, don't speak, oh I know what you're thinking

And I don't need your reasons

I know you're good, I know you're good, I know you're real good

Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la

Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush

don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush

don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

HAHA and guess who is she pointing it out to ? Ill highlight it for you.

And this is the other one

Ooh, I can't go any further then this

I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Cool, I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you

Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you

And all those things we use to use to use to do

Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you

Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you

And all those things we use to use to use to do

Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline

That's where I'm gonna wait, for you

I'll be lookin out, night n'day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay

I can't go any further then this

I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas

Across the universe I go to other galexies

Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet

I navigate myself myself to take me where you be

Cause girl I want, I, I, I want you right now

I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown

I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day

I love you alway... way

Can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)

Right at the boarderline

That's where I'm gonna wait, for you

I'll be lookin out, night n'day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay

I can't go any further then this

I want you so bad it's my only wish

I can't go any further then this

I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other sideJust you and I (just you and I)

I will fly, I'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)

I will try, until I die, for you and I, for you and I, for for you and I, For for you and I, for for you and I, for you and I

Can you meet me half way (yup yup)

Meet me half way, right at the boarderline

That's where I'm gonna wait, for you

I'll be lookin out, night n'day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay

I can't go any further then this

I want you so bad it's my only wish

I can't go any further then this

I want you so bad it's my only wish

This is for Syazwan. haha. Good one Fana.

In the meantime, I am very addicted to the song Hella Good - No Doubt and Beautiful Nightmare - Beyonce.

I LIKEEEE.

Loves. Out.

baby when you're gone,

2009-10-01T14:24:00.003+08:00

I've been wandering around the house all night
wondering what the hell to do
Yeah, I'm trying to concentrate but all I can think of is you
well the phone don't ring 'cause my friends ain't home
I'm tired of being all alone
Got the tv on 'cause the radio's playing
songs that remind me of you

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love
days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long
Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should
things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone

I keep driving up and down these streets
trying to find somewhere to go
Yeah i'm looking for a familiar face, but there's no one I know
oh, this is torture, this is pain, it feels like I'm gonna go insane
I hope you're coming back real soon, 'cause i don't know what to do

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love
days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long
Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should
things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love
days go on and on and the nights just seem so long
Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should
things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone

This lyric suits me VERY very well. I miss him.

Oh lord SPM is REALLY getting nearer ! I can feel his breath ! haha, bullshitting, my middle name.

So, just studied physics and I managed to watch the AMAZING F1 concert in Singapore on Channel [V]. It was AWESOME. Why Malaysia can't pull something that is as cool as that ? They suck, You suck, We suck.

So babies, I am having an openhouse this Saturday 3rd October on 8pm. Do come. *nnt ckp tk ajk kan* haha

COME.

Loves. Out.

meet me at the hotel room

2009-09-30T22:16:00.005+08:00

Ola readers !

As ive promised, I would put up the pictures of me when I was at Jeram Linang. SO, fulfilling my promise, here's the pictures :)

Enjoy A-holes ! haha

Damn nice right the view ? I know, hihi.

Loves. Out.

Deeep man, that's deep, youre deep

2009-09-30T01:31:00.005+08:00

WOW, i know. Quite shocking huh. Well i do have my own reasons on putting it in public and even had the idea of writing that down in paper. As everyone know, I will be having my SPM exam this year and maybe some of you knows about the family conflict that I have.

So, it's very sad bcse I obviously have to apologies to everyone literally to get the blessings. But I cant apologies verbally to papa. So yea, maybe I'll give him a call or just send a text message later on.

By posting the photo up there doesn't really mean that I love papa and I don't love my mum. Well, I can say 'I love you, ma' to my mum like every single minute but my dad ? Hah. A joke maybe.

So yea, Papa,

I will be having my BigHumongousCrucialSignificantEssential exam this year and I hope that I can have your blessing. Im sorry for the wrong things I did. I didn't get the chance to 'salam raya' with you the other day bcse I was too busy panicking on what should I do. I waited to lock eye contact with you so that I can wave but you didn't look. It's okay. I love you okay papa.

___________________________________________________________________

Sadcase.

Ala maa, I love you too, hihi :)

At school all the form 5's and form 3's had the Majlis Restu Ilmu where all of us had to salam and ask for forgiveness from the teachers. I was strong at first but I failed to control my emotions when it was the turn to salam the pengetua. From that point I started crying. Oh gosh, gay sial sue. Well I did A LOT of sins towards the teachers. hehe. small2 sins only.

I am currently coughing like a mad cow and my voice suddenly turned into something smexxy. haha. Not that I am, my voice, I said.

18 Days towards 18th Oct

&

49 Days towards SPM

Damn.

Im femished. Gotta find something to eat. Tarrra.

Loves. Out.

p/s : to abg kakak mama : I am sad inside. Chey. I love you guys. DON'T laugh.

I can feel then emptiness already

2009-09-27T17:37:00.002+08:00

I WANT YOU TO BE HERE, bloody hell.

My steewwpit cat ;)

Loves. Out.

OMG I WANT TO RE-DO !

2009-09-26T19:21:00.004+08:00

About what i said in the previous post, SCRATCH EVERYTHING. I love him and I hope that nothing can come between us. CHEY. haha. So honey, be happy in France and i want a souvenir ! haha.

You guys wanna know what happened ? Yea we fought on our annie but something came up and I met him at Sunway. We made up. He came to me tho. Haha. And yea we're okay. I maybe cn get a bit too sensitive upon him going away for a long long time. hm.

So yea, have fun I love you :)

Loves. Out.

Happy Anniversary darl

2009-09-26T11:21:00.005+08:00

I Love You, Nik Syazwan

It has been a year now since Ive known you. Quite a long time right. Yea. But Im nt going to type about what happened on the midnight of the 25th, dont worry. I just wanna say, maybe going to France is the best thing that can happen fr us. You can forget about me. You cn build a new life. Don't worry abt me since I am finishing high school soon.

Things just dont work out the way we wanted it to be. It is not anyone's fault, you are being you. I cant blame you for that. If i really don't mean that much of anything to you then it's fine. I won't protest.

I just wnt you to be happy alright. If things will eventually work out in the end then that's very good. But if it doesn't then i believe we both will be just fine.

I love you honey. Be happy.

Loves. Out,

selected memory empty

2009-09-24T09:22:00.004+08:00

"Yeah I wanna dance with somebody, with somebody who loves me"

Hooyeah just got back from Kelantan. It sure was hell but I managed to pull everything together, *applause please* haha. SO, this raya differs a lot from my other raya bcse we celebrated it in Kelantan :)

The second raya's night, I went to go lepak with Nazmi, UK and his cousins. It was okay, quite exhilirating for me bcse at that time I missed subang and my friends. So it was okay, after releasing all the tensions with the friends, went to mamak with he siblings and cousins. OKAY la, teehee.

The third raya we went to this waterfall called Jeram Linang. It was hell fun ! I will upload the pictures once I get my hands on them.

And we went back home on the fourth of Syawal. Hurrah. Arrived at Subang around 4 in the morning. Quite a raya !

Well the duit raya was okay, more than I expected. haha. Thank god.

I am supposed to get ready now to go to KL but omg how lazy I am.

Enjoy the photos, Tadaa.

Second Raya

Also second raya

All first raya :)

Loves. Out.

Selamat Hari Raya Bitchess

2009-09-18T13:40:00.003+08:00

SO, hey

I will be leaving for Kelantan in another 3 hours, isn't that terrfying ? A 10 hour journey really has it's effect on me. Seriously dude. The cold-ness, my phone batt will surely go off, the urge to pee when there's no toilet and when i have no urge to pee when the toilet is right smack in front of my face. That's so typical. The cramps, and the stuffs that I'll experience every year -.- God help me.

Ho well, I can't avoid it right. Just pray on my safety for the whole 10 hour journey. God damn.

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin :)

I apologies deeply if my writings offended anyone in any point, it was just for the entertainment.

And for the non-muslims, Enjoy your holiday !

Bye.

Loves. Out.

Im a press conference, you a conversation

2009-09-17T14:23:00.004+08:00

My topic for the day. Raya '08

TOMORROW'S A HOLIDAAAAYYY ! hoooyeaaah !

Seriously I can't tell you how it feels to be freed from the torturing exams. It's goood it's good. Oh well, I'm going back to Kelantan tomorrow evening and I don't know how many times I've to repeat about the propostrous and dreadful experience that I will be experiencing during this Raya. I literally have been blabering about how hard it is to go back there because, hm you guys, it is called Kelantan. I just need someone to tell me that going back to Kelantan is not a burden after all. NOW, please somebody TELL ME. I just need something to ease up the tension. Haha, so much drama for just going back to the hometown for Raya. Okay imma stop whining now, *smileess :)

I haven't pack my bag yet, ugghhhhhh the agony that I will go through. Just be ready for the post when Im back here from Kelantan. Full of complaints. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

SO, just now i did my Add maths exam and because i got the paper early enough for me to examine and memorise, it was Okay :) and i seldom or maybe never say an Okay to any Add maths paper, EVER.

AND ONE MORE, It is kind of irritating to go back to your hometown expecting to get a looottt of duit rayas but lastly, all the kampung peoples will never give out more than RM2.00. Cheapos. Luckily I will kunjung-mengunjungi my families around Kota Bharu, so Im expecting morreeee *hugeee grinn. hahah.

Johan once asked me when I was whining about getting small amount of duit raya, he said ;

Johan : Kau ni nak raya sbb apa ah ?

Sue yg come lote : duit raya,

Hahaha. Nanti Allah marah, tak dapat duit raya langsung sme kne curi, pdn muka.

I hope not.

HO WELL, I LOVE to whine. Here's another whine, I don't care losing anyone, really. But the time Ive spent, the dignity Ive sacrificed, all wasted for you and honestly i feel that it wasn't worth any sweat that i've secreted at all. It is called 'serik'. And I guarantee that the other one can do any best damn thing for you later. Cheers :)

I guess you readers must be insipid upon hearing my babbles about Kelantan, duit raya, agonies, hahaha. It is very typical of me to do that.

Okay i guess this post has been a long post, and my back is aching. Bye peoples.

Loves. Out.

What If I ?

2009-09-13T21:08:00.002+08:00

Hey my man, I AM SO BORED AND FULL. hehe. Just ironed my school uniform. Ugh, cant wait to end school and forget about the uniforms. Its killing me man. Oh ya, I was reminded about this song just now and oh how i love the wordings :p

Wish we could switch up the roles

And I could be that...

Tell you I love you

But when you call

I never get back

Would you ask them questions like me?...

Like where you be at?

Cause I'm out

4 in the morning

On the corner rolling

Doing my own thing

Girl go head and be...

Go run the streets

come home late say sleep like em

Creep like em

'Front with ya friends

Act hard when you're with em' like em'

Keep a straight face when ya tell a lie

Always keep an air-tight alibi

What he don't know won't break his heart

It's Ciara-Like a boy

Oh ya chck out this BMW Z4 Coupe :) Wait till I drive em. HAHA. I know, its just a little girls dream car. No harm done right ?

To be sad enough and know that Syazwan won't be here for our 1st Anniversarry this 26th and my birthday this 3rd Dec because he'll be off to France then Japan. Damn you boy !

Bye, tomorrow's a school day, how exhilirating -.-

Loves. Out.

im'ma tell you, oh it's real honey !

2009-09-07T01:37:00.006+08:00

I am getting much more or less UNcreative of posting interesting blog nowadays. Apparently my head is jam-packed with "Integration" or "Binomial" or "Linear law" or anything that has to do with Add Maths. My official rival that has been declared by myself today. Sadly I will be taking that subject during my

aSsPeeamM

The horror right, I am so very much aware of it.

Today I watched two old movies that catches a hella lot of my attention. It was

AND

It has really been awhile since i watched that movie and,

OHMYGOD, i heard something outside my house and it sounded C-R-E-E-P-Y. Can i be scared now eventhough i know it's Ramadhan ? but yeah baby, i heard something alright.

Oh well, back to my story, that two movies was really attracting and interesting. I highly recommend it for all of you. Enjoy bitches.

Tommorow is a hol for Nuzul Quran and i feel very the LAZY to go to tuition. Guess what tuition ? ADD MATHS. like WHAT THE ? kan.

Syazwan asked me if i want to tag along with his mother and him to Shah Alam tommorrow. And break our fast there. But since I am still under my mum's obligation, I've to ask her permission first. That's the hardest part i might say. Ugh.

It is 15 minutes more to 2am and the fact that i KNOW if i sleep now it'll be a TREMENDOUS burden for me to wake up for sahur. What can i say, I am SO NOT a morning person. I pity my future husband.

I effing HATE the mosquitoes here because they're causing me a large amount of scars coming if i keep scratching. Which everyone knows that I'll scratch. I mean, who wouldn't ? They are called mosquitoes bite, Okay, I am literally crapping about mosquitoes and I still am. Please people, I am not crazy. Okay cutting it out.

I WANT TO SLEEP.

So goodnight. That's just the end of it.

Tadaa.

Loves. Out.

sad story

2009-09-04T14:21:00.003+08:00

Another week of trials has went by and I can't wait for RAYAA !! hoooyeah !

I don't know why it bothered me so much to wake up in the morning these past days. I feel the HATRED was filling SUPERfast in my heart & soul. ceycey. And people, DO YOU KNOW ? I have not been fasting for about 9 days now ? My friend, named Period, knows very well that i love to eat so she's giving me a LOT of days to eat while other people is starving. hehehehe. BY THE WAY, I just finished a burger from Burger King just now.

Can you feel the jealousy ? haha

OH WELL, this monday is a holiday so I am planning to wake up LATE. Alhamdulillahh.... :)

I don't have anything nice to say now so toodles ! Off to play games. teehee.

Loves. Out.

such disgrace

2009-08-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

Baby,

Please don't say the 'mature' word when you are not 'mature' yourself. IF somehow you think that you are so 'mature' why would you want to delete your posts if you think that youre so right ? Are you blaming other people for your two-faced personality ? OH Gosh please correct you, do you possibly think that people like you ? They don't. So give all of us a break.

And the other Baby,

Please don't blame everybody else that you're utterly gorgeous. Sad enough, I don't mean the general type of gorgeous. I know, there are lots of plastic surgeries to repair your face since it's physically damaged :) Don't worry honey, I know you have the money. Right ?

------------------------------------------------------

It is kind of a straight foward post right ? I just can't help people who loves themselves merely TOO much. So sad. Boohoo.

SO, this is the end of my criticising post. Not to make more sins by talking about people's attitude that is none other than the truth. Maybe they can't accept the fact that they suck. A lot.

WELL, since SPM is crawling nearer, I've spent most of my time going to Add Maths' tuition for 4 hours per day. Talking 'bout my future to earn my own money rather than to spend my folks' money right. The agony.

I am sorry if someone feels that I am writing about them because maybe I'm not ? Don't be disturbed by what i post because this is just a free-writing of what i think. Don't blame me for what i think because it is a bloody fact.

:)

Loves. Out.

ooooooooooohhh can I gossip here PUHleaasseee ?

2009-08-25T14:41:00.002+08:00

OMG i know it's Ramadhan but stupid people just annoys and sickens me with their stupid stupid thoughts and unacceptable behaviour. They think they have all the things in the world and they are bloody rich till no one is richer than them, but they didnt realise that they are actually spending their folks' money and their education is bloody going down the drain. And SO, that will bring them to a conclusion of a gloomy future with a husband that is close to a snake with a salary of RM3,000 a month only and end up with 5 kids in a flat. And lastly, every end of the month their dearly parents will receive a call from them asking for money bcse they are in shortage of money.. they are literally called LOSERS or just plan BRAT.

OR

Them people who thinks they have the best boyf/girlf in the world thus thinking that the sweetest person in the whole bloody universe is their mate. God help me, there are TONNES of people out there with a sweeter act than your mate so suck it up and shut up.

AND

The lot who thinks that THEY are the best therefore no one else is right. People who take control of things so they are ALWAYS right eventhough they are actually lying their brains out.

PLUS

People who ACT like they are wearing 'tudung' like they should, according to our religion but still talks behind people backs which is worse than not covering yourself up. They, 'the tudung girls' nowadays do things that are worsT and claims that they are so bloody angelic. OH pleasee..

.......................................................................................................................

I am making a point out of this blurb that is gossiping the shit out of me. But then again, i get talked behind my back so vice versa. I get my pahala back :)

So think people, THINK.

Loves. Out.

p/s : count the word "bloody" :)

never ending

2009-08-20T14:22:00.002+08:00

Ive been with you for quite a long time i might say and in a short short period, you can shift your life to be with someone else ? God that sounds so gay. BUT, then again, im very disappointed in you. Well, now is my time of letting go and backing off. I'm just saying bcse i don't want you to get a mistaken thought. So yea, be happy :)

TRIALS is such a badass currently. I mean like seriously. A week has went pass and I don't even have one subject to be confident about. After every paper my statement will be like

"Bagi banyak answers tpi tktau btul ke tak"

Sad-case right ? At least for trials i have the feeling pf readiness in about 40 % ? haha.

AND YES, the month that we all have been waiting for, RAMADAN. The month terrifies the **** out of me. Ya Allah Sue, berdosa ! :) Okay, re-phrasing, Ramadan, what a month that i have been waiting for all year ! hehe. It's an opportunity for me to be skinnier ! HAHA, funny word kan bulliers ? -.-

I've got to go sadly. Will update more, INSYAALLAAHH. (haha. one of the steps to be prepare for Ramadan, along with not to curse anymoree)

loves. out.

Happy Birthday :)

2009-08-05T21:01:00.002+08:00

You're one year older now, that means one year wiser. I hope you can think what's best for you.
SOOOOOOOOooooooo,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR ATIRAH BINTI CHE RAZALLI

HAHAH, ive revealed your full name ! wink wink ;D

Have fun baby <3

youre a waste of my 5 years

2009-07-08T14:02:00.004+08:00

I have been sick for about 6 days noww, Get it over with already ! The flu, the cough, the heaty body, the aching back, the torturing headache. Oh god, cure me ASAP please ?

Since my head is currently pinned down by a MASSIVE headache, i am literally lost for words these past days. As I am right now. Being sick is never an option though i was once begging to get a cold just fr one particular reason which i dont think is necessary to tell you people.

My life is just fine with the big F, haha. Not so, fine with the small average f would be just nice for me. No need to brag about the happy life we all are living in without those small small things right ? Okay i am so crapping.

There are some things that has happened within the last few weeks but can i say im lazy to write one long recap ?

Okay fine one short summary :)

Watched Transformers 3 (a blast !)
Went to Cheer 2009, and surprisingly, Blitzers won ! *applause
Got sick -.-
Henna-ed my hand, *wink wink

Nothing much as we can see bcse i was busy spending my time recovering.

*speechless*

OKAY so i have nothing more to say sooooo,

Loves. Out.

p/s: After what i've done, i bet even a puppy can appreciate the things that i did.

I LOVE YOU MAN

2009-06-27T21:21:00.003+08:00

I love you SO MUCH WEH. So not.

Ones that ive spend most of my life with decieved me. Hurrah.

new york new york

2009-06-14T15:02:00.001+08:00

MY CHEESECAKE IS A SUCCESSFUL ONEEE !

YES people, the cheesecake i baked yesterday really was good. I made it ! haha. I dont know why people say its hard to make a cheesecake but then again, it was okay. I baked it with my sister and she said, if it's delicious then tell people she made it, if it's not then u made it. So lame :)

So people, if you want a cheesecake then ask me to make it for you.

hehehehehehehehehe.

Loves. Out.

just maybe

2009-06-13T19:16:00.002+08:00

This hols, Relationships are broken, friendships are gapped but fortunately, there are relationships that got close.

Not a GREAT experience but then, working things out is not the "IN" thing nowadays.

For the broken relationship, be strong. Im sure there are TONNES of people out there waiting to be discovered by you or maybe him/her. Never worry.

For the friendships that are gapped, maybe that's just a fact of life that all of us face. What do you suggest ?

And lastly for the relationships that got close, I hope we don't do stupid things anymore to jeapordise anything.

Another one more day and i repeat people, ONE more day for the school to re-open. OhMyGosh kill me ! It's okay sue, just bear with this torture fr a few months then your free. Be patient.

So, my recap fr the week is, on Monday i've tuition fr the whole 10 HOURS ! Effing exhausted. Slept through Tuesday and went fr tuition again. Went to Bukit Bintang with 'the Syazwan' on Wednesday and tuition fr Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Planned to have one session of Biology tmr fr two hours with Mr. Lum OR Mr. Lam. You choose. But still the pronounciation is still (a-m) as in Kata Am dan Kata Khas.

Since my house contains one newly bought oven in it in the kitchen. I am also newly fattened by the products of the oven terbabit. Hha. Teringat perkataan 'terbabit' so nk guna jgk. Okay sambung story. I baked Moist Chocolate Cake, Cupcakes, Chocolate Muffin and after this Cheese Cake. That is what i do during this hols. Quite a way to spend my hols right ?

Pray fr the fats to VANISH. Oh Please ?

longing to bake this perfectly :)

Loves. Out.

PLEASE make this post as an issue

2009-06-06T01:44:00.004+08:00

People, tell me please, what is your actual meaning of friends ?

OR

What is your definition of True Friends ?

I know and i've realised that this has been wondered by people all over the world and not just me. Some people have even mentioned about 'True Friends' in their blogs and myspace or maybe fb or twitter ? Im not sure.

IF somehow the general definition of friends is just clicks at school or during high school years, then i don't understand. It's not that i am thinking that everyone must be friends 'till the end of time, but then seriously, What's yours ?

I need to know bcse i'm afraid that i'm getting the wrong idea abt wht the world thinks about friendship.

OH YEA, maybe, just maybe ..

We've just 1 or 2 friends that we love and are significant to ourselves ? How abt that ? Yea, maybe changing friends for our own welfare. Why do we have to care about what people think right ? Nooo, it's about what we feel, not others. I mean, it's kind of stupid to put others first than ourselves. REALLY stupid.

BUT, if we do that. won't we hurt the ones that we've once got close to ?

No, it's okay. We can work things out after we've what we need right ?

I don't understand.

Posting a blog about this issue is not like i want people to think but then, it's my blog. Why can't i express myself through my OWN blog ? Why would i want to think what others want to discuss. It's not that depressed people can't write about their own prespectives.

So the moral of the story is ? Take care of your own feelings first rather than others.

Sekian.

The ones that i put first merely TOO MUCH.

:)

Don't think too much people, eventually you guys will come to a conclusion that will jeapordise something.

Loves. Out.

so much of a film

2009-06-05T13:34:00.002+08:00

Remember the vid that i once helped Jai's cousin for a contest ? Well it's done and it's in Youtube. Ive been doubting wether i should put in it my blog or not but then, Whatthehell. Im pretty sure Yudesh or whoever will put it in their blog sooner or later. Haha. Please don't laugh or even smirk bcse i look terribly ugly and weird. Disastrous ! Okay dh enough. Enjoy peoples :)

But HOWEVER, i adoreee my hair in the vid. Hehe. I don't knw why it looked soo healthy. Oh ya, if you can see, Fara Nabira's face was as if she's waiting fr the word 'cut' and explode to laughter. Well she did.

Loves. Out.

togatogatogak

2009-06-05T00:56:00.004+08:00

I am sooooo wanting thiissss maaaaann !!

*Slllrruuppsss

Like hell yeaaaa, the flyer that ive posted in the previous posts ? About the party on the 13th June ? Please do come friends :) I guarantee you that it'll be a BLAST !

AND YES ! I want a toga toga togaaa ! Although i know i dont have a rockin bod like the one at the top but whattheheckk. hehe. yeaaa, to wear it to the party. I hope that i can get one by next Saturday. Fingers crossed people. Kalau boleh dgn jari kaki yaa. Doakan lah saya.

Nothing much to blab about since my hols are not that of a thrill. So sad i know. Just counting the days fr my SPM to over and then. FREEDOM weh FREEDOM ! hehe.

Loves. Out.

later

2009-06-03T14:53:00.002+08:00

come here girl, come here girl, come here girl, BOUNCE !

i'm abso***ingly bored ! hehe. I've tuition at 5pm and maybe im going with Syazwan. Dia LAGI ! :p

We had a sleepover at baby's house on Monday night :) It was suuuperFUN ! We watched The Uninvited and Bride Wars but by the time we switched to Bride Wars, all of them slept through and it was just me. SO BAD. Soooo i slept too. Woke up around 9 ! haha, planned to wake up at 8 something but i dnt know wht happened. haha. Went for breakfast at Pappa Rich, pranked a few people using each others phones. SUMPAH FUN ! haha. I want to have more fun with you girls, oh PLEASE ?

Then went back to baby's house, after 10 minutes or so, Syazwan and his mother picked me up and we went to Ou. Something happened and i regretted not taking the offer. hehe. I WANT THAT PUMPS ! haha. It's okay my dear, next time eh ;)

So, walked around ou and met Lutfi and Jazlan and his *ehem ehem* hehe. I dont know why was i SO hyper at that time, they were all mocking me. Bloddy hell. I know Jazlan reads my blog so, You're SUCH A HORRIDIOUS COW. okay dh tkde kne mengena. HAHA. dh diam. Went back around 5 bcse i've tuition at 6.45. See why i feel that tuitions is such a pain in the ass ? HM !

Found out that there was no tuition so went back.

TODAY, i did nothing. SO SAD, i know.

Loves. Out.

king size mattress

2009-05-30T21:44:00.004+08:00

I am currently looking at stupid pictures like this :

haha, but somehow when i stumbled on this picture, it reminds me of my cat, take a look,

haha, please do nt deny that they look the same. seriously.

oh ya, i REALLYREALLY miss this,

I WANT this to happen again oh pleasepleasee ! I promise myself that this hols will be filled with just them :)

I went fr a casting this afternoon with my sister and her friends in Damansara. And guess what is it for ? haha, Carefree panty liner. So cool. I was trying fr the featured cast or extras. For starters kan, why not ? SO i hope i'll get the comm, Pray for me my friends ! hehe.

I feel sooooo empty now and i dont understand WHY is the weather so hot nowadays ? Is it bcse of the pollution that we're causing ? People, BE LIKE NEW YORK. hha. Well maybe any of you would say that they're actions are stupid and wont cause any difference on the world BUT at least they've tried and maybe reduce the pollutions on the percentage of 0.01 % ? MAYBE ? It's either that or none ? THINK PEOPLE.

And yes, i want to blog about you wether you know it or not. Imagine ME being your sister and doesn't know a thing. You tell the others first but not us. WHADDEFUCK.

I haven't washed my face yet since this evening due to my supeerrdupeerrrLAZYness. I know it's a common disease for us humanoids but WEH, we have the lost. SO CHANGE. Chey, Im telling people to change but im remaining. hha,

I've been my reading friends' past blogs and they're all blogging about Form 5 lives, after-school lives, cherish, boredome. ALL THE SAME. Like what they 'Kelantanese' would say, SUPO TULOYO. hahahaha, i wouldn't be so sure about the spelling but im following the pronounciation. So Kelantanese, i know you understand. *Wink wink.

WELL, till we meet again some other millennium. hehe.

Loves. Out.

2009-05-30T00:36:00.004+08:00

babybabyy ! i know you miss me. okay SO over.

i feeeel that i have a LOT to blog but when im here now, right this second, KAPEEESSHHH, blank. sooo some messy messy recap. haha. apologies.

Last Thusrday our mid term finishheeeddd and i oh so so pray that i wont have as many fails as i have last term.

Not that many of fails exactly but, yeaahh fails.

exams

exams

exams

why do you have to make my life here more miserable every second hm ? whts the purpose ? i've nvr understood whts the exact purpose of SPM. actually i do but i don't want to, okay crap.

OH YA, jai's csin or something wanted some students to help him to do this short film SO, we helped ! haha. Feels SO weird. But yeaah experience. Tune in Youtube to watch us *wink wink. haha. lame short film so DON'T be so excited to watch me make a fool of myself. Please don't.

my general topic fr the day,

FAKE ID's

WHADDEFFUUCCKK ?

Not happe with your own age is ittt ? Blame the parents lah fr making you too late. It's not that you won't be that old enough to go PARTY, DRINK, or whatsoever. You're trying to prove that you're soooooo cool is it ? Please, i admit, i can't say that if any of us doesn't really have the urge to make a fake id but seriously, do you have to ? THINK what your parents would say. YOU WILL be 18 or 21 to be allegedly allowed to those events like one held in Melaka. Like when you're still 16 and you follow someone like 21 with a fake id without your parents knowing ? again, WHADDEFFUUCCKK ? Don't be stupid.

Nowadays kids, CEY. haha.

School hols. Hols. Hols. No plans, Don't want to talk abt it.

Ive been so isolated frm the Net these past weeks and i feel so left out. So sad. Ive been so vain-less and i feel empty. Again, CEY ! I feel that i want to take pictures and i mean LOOAADDSS of them during this hols. Such a lame plan kan ? Omg i seriously have to do that. Do some sleepovers, take pictures, a party perhaps ? Ma, if you're reading, it's a personal party la arranged by a frnd of mine or maybe me helping ? haha. AND fyi, its a safe party people. You don't have to be 18 or 21 to get in :)

Oh ya, the person who is organising is Sharinna and im just helping to spread out the words. Come on people, attend this event bcse it's like 13's party so mcm, REALISE that people in Usj 13 doesn't do much of these kind of events, they just attend to one. SO come on people ! Only RM2o per person. Bring the friends along alright ?

I'm bored so BYE !

Loves. Out.

OMG

2009-05-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

FINALLY ! i am literally blogging ! haha. sorry frnds, ive shifted house to a new housing area so they havent provide us any phone line or anything, even fr wireless also there's no coverage. And my mum's still waiting fr the P1 W1max. hha, i am currently using my cousin's internet who lives next door. cool right ?

These past few weeks have been such a roller coaster ride. Oh well, LIFE right ?

DH malas nk fkr stuffs. haha, so BYE ! ily and imy <3

lots to blurt

2009-04-10T22:44:00.004+08:00

Omg omg i have sooooooooooo many things to say 'till i made a list for me so that i won't forget the interesting topics that i am eager to share with you readers , eceyy :)

Oh ya , so now i am going to sort things according to my list , i hope that this looong and full of diff topics won't be insipid .

So FIRST , my mum , Sakartini bt. Mohd Daud (Yes Helmi , Rifdi , Ibu Kartini) showed me this vid of a small small girl dancing to beyonce's song called Single Ladies that ws sung like this (Aaaaall my single ladies , aaaall my single ladies *and repeated until it sounded as thought it is pronounced as aaall my stimulate , yes , that's what my sister said* now put your hands up , wo'o'o'o'o'o'o'o'o wo'o'o'o'o'o ..) . She was named Arianna and luckily she's cute bcse the way that she danced , one word ; Gelabah . Haha . Don't worry my lovely readers , I'll post the vid here .

Haha , cute right ? i know .

So my second topic of my post is I HAVE A FRIEND AND HE PROMISED SOMETHING TO ME AND ASKS ME TO PUT IT UP HERE . Well my friend , i will !

"That annoying Johan who lives in Usj 17 i suppose , who is in form 4H now , who knon2 is a "rockstar" now PROMISED me that he wants to buy me hand lotion for my birthday which is on the 3rd December *please people , i don't expect you guys to forget after i've purposely post it here* . So you better keep your promise okay gila ?"

Okay moving on to the third topic ;

I've been taking cabs since like earlier this year bcse i HAVE to go to tuition for a better future kan kaan ? Yes , so i've figured out some safety tips in case you get in with a very itchy taxi driver , so , here's some tips .

1. Once you've got in the cab , check their number plate . You can see them at both sides of the car on top of the seat belt part . True , check their number plate and memorize it OR if you feel that the taxi driver is having some bad intentions then message the number plate to a friend or your boyfriend . (this goes to the girls , i don't think guys would be harmed by taxi drivers , but if you want to be cheeky enough then message the number plate to your girlf)

2. Never make eye contact to the drivers .

3. Be friendly if you have to so that the driver won't have the heart to rape or molest or rob a nice girl with good manners will he ?

4. Keep your belongings in your hand at all time .

5. Be in control . Don't let the driver controls you bcse remember , you're PAYING him to drive you .

6. When you get out of the cab , smile and say Bye :)

I think that's about it bcse i practice this everytime i take a cab alone and i'm still here safe and sound . Haha so LAME , i know .

Oh and my last topic won't be very interesting to certain people here ,

My favourite word , EGO .

Why people , why ? Tell me why do people MUST have their egos ? I don't understand . Haha but i do admit that i have mine too . But yea , i'm wondering , why ? Having big big BIG ego doesn't give you anything or doesn't make you someone , right ? It'll more or less hurt the ones you love , but on the other hand , hurt someone you hate . So ego bertempat la ya kanak - kanak . Haha .

So i guess my post is not very long but yea , i hope it's quite interesting enough . I Love You .

Loves . Out .

drama drama drama

2009-04-06T13:56:00.007+08:00

Ssup peoples , first thing i would like to say , I'm injured :O

Haha , i'm sure the pupils of SMK USJ 13's won't be surprised bcse they saw me . Okay okay here's the storyy , *Oh gosh malunya nk cerita*

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It was a regular evening in MPSJ , I was jogging wholeheartedly . For a few rounds , I can say that my stamina there ws quite good . I ws running consistently *chey* . Towards the end of the day , i THINK i sprained my left leg bcse i felt pain . Deep pain . I walked to Mcd limping bcse i just had to . I ws having my tuition thre . So again , I had to force myself . It ws painful . I can't even climb the stairs there without feeling the superduuuper pain . But it was already okay after 2 or 3 days .

So i thought it was nothing .

I jogged again bfre my school's saringan bcse i'm taking the 4x4oom , 8oom , 400m . I was getting myself ready bcse i haven't jogged for more than one week at that time . School holidays were like last week so i got myself merely carried away . So , obviously , the stamina was not there . I jogged and i can just run for about half the track . Panicking but i was trying to gain my confident level .

I went to Stadium Matsushita for saringan the next day , i had my 400m event . I ran and got number 5 *gosh maluuuu* . Then my leg was killing me in the same spot . Supposately , i have my 800m event but i told teacher i injured my leg . We can't find any replacement so she cancelled our (Laksamana) participation . Bcse of me , GUILTY !

4x400m was held during my Sports Day . I thought my leg is going to be okay by that day . So i took the event . But it seems that i didn't healed fully . I can feel a tiny pain if i walk . WALK ! But what the heck , i ran . I was the second runner and Nadia was the first . She was second and i thought i can keep that up , but , when i ws running for about quarter of the track i can already feel the pain again and my stamina was increasing . Not to let my house down , I still ran but i decreased my speed . Through half the track the pain was unbearable and I was crying whilst running . But then at one point , i limped and then i fell while still holding the silver baton . It was EMBARASSING . St. John came rushing towards me and then they were asking me what's wrong . I can't really answer them but i can just cry and show them where the pain was . Rifdi and Baby came running asking me things and then Rifdi snapped at the St. John students bcse they were not doing their work . Teyra Syazwan and other people came later . I can't really recall what happened since i was crying and was dealing with a massive pain in my leg . Yes people , IN my leg .

They carried me using a stretch to the St. John's base . and put ice where the pain was . i can't really explain where the pain was bcse it really is in my leg . I reckon it has something to do with my joints or bone . Through all the drama , the sister drove me including Syazwan to the clinic to x-ray my leg but there weren't any x-ray service on Sunday . I mean , if people was going to die on a Sunday would you let them just bcse you dont provide any x-ray services just to find what is wrong with them ? Fools . Better don't run a clinic or a Medical Centre . We went back and decided to go to someone who can massage well bcse i can feel the pain when i press on my hip bone . So must be something wrong there . Well people , maybe tonight i'll be going to that person SO , wish me luck !

haha , yes , the story was quite novel-ish and skit2 dramatic , saja je :p

So friends , i do not have any credit left now so just to let you guys know , i'm okay , i can still walk . Thanks for the concern :)

Today i stayed at home bcse our school gave us Cuti Peristiwa , so i get to rest :)

Syazwan is leaving me today and go to Langkawi . hha , he'll be thre for about 3 days . Man i am soo going to miss you . Come back soon and have fun okay monkey !

OH YEAAAAAAA . Me and my friends had a bbq at usj 18's park last night . I supposed that we had fun right boys and girls ? i love you guys :) And sorry tiqot , i just had to post some pictures here . Tk thn . haha , don't worry , nothing yaa . haha

Yes Helmi , kaki i sakit -.-

*saliva dripping*

Loves . Out .

you're one hell of a shit ass

2009-04-03T11:42:00.003+08:00

I've just found out that i'm a fool fool fool fool , blame me for all that . I've erased the doubts that i once had bcse i WANT to trust you but you're really one dumbfuck to me . For now ? You're NOTHING in my eye . Get it ? N-O-T-H-I-N-G . Spell it , Read it , Memorize it , Live with it .
I know that i'll discover something bcse it has been so long since i spied on you . Well , i've got my treasure now right ? You want to prove something to me do you ? Let ME prove something to you , once you've done giving me all your shits , it'll be over one day when i've had enough of you . really , sending that kind of a msg after spending looaaddss of time WITH ME ?! genius man .

It'll be eternity when i'll start to trust you again . And i've heard sayings that you can't have a relationship when you don't have trust , no ? So , i did my part , and so did you i suppose . Now i'm doing the final phase . Be ready now .

The prove boy ? THINK it through and REMEMBER 'till you die . No wonder you love that song so much , such a stupid me . pity .

People , imagine giving this song to your EX loved ones . so sweet .

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You're like a rocket in my mind
That's waiting to define everything about me no one knew
And you stick like a poster on my wall
As if you dont wanna move

I got no money in my pocket
Nobody to rock with but you
But you know me I don't seem to roll
Somehow we managed to get through

People come and people go
And people gonna come some more
They pick a fight
But it's alright
At least I get to see you tonight
Tonight

I can't believe we almost got famous for nothing baby
You came the last minute of --- to save me
I can't believe we almost got paid for nothing baby
Cause even if they go away
I got the feeling that you're gonna stay

It's like I'm picking up a miracle off the sidewalk
Like kitten in the box
Don't contemplate yourself, you say
Cause you're all you've got
I'm a --- and pathetic
At the same time unlike you
Baby you've got no move
And you think I'm good at what I do

People come and people go
And people gonna come some more
They pick a fight
But it's alright
At least I have you home tonight
Tonight

I can't believe we almost got famous for nothing baby
You came the last minute of --- to save me
I can't believe we almost got paid for nothing baby
Cause even if they go away
I got the feeling that you're gonna stay

You're like a rocket in my mind
Waiting to define everything about me
You're like a poster on my wall
Sticking, don't wanna fall
As if you dont wanna move

Ring a bell ?

Loves . Out .

earth hour disappointment

2009-03-28T23:51:00.004+08:00

As promised , i am posting a blog on how sad and disappointed and angry i am towards the unsupportive people in Malaysia . Inilah org Malaysia . TYPICAL SANGAT ! 1 week bfre earth hour i was very excited about it and i asked my family wether do they want to join it and then the sister was being all ..

"BUAT APA ?! kte pnt2 nk kne tutup lampu semua pastu Bush kat sna bukak semua lmpu dekat white house tkpe ? Tkde tkde tkde ! hani nk tutup lampu semua kt rumah tutup la kakak tknk ,"

haih , and fyi kakak , skrng dh President Obama la :) haha . ANYWAY , why malaysians WHY ?! If the world is not being supportive enough then let them be ! We should help the earth that WE OURSELVES ARE LIVING IN . That's out part of helping . Why should you guys ignore the responsibilities ? Do you think that we have any alternate mother earth if this one has been ruined BY US ?! NO people NO !

COME ON people , work with me here ! Why should we Malaysians have that kind of mentality ? Don't you guys feel ashamed of ourselves towards the world ? Where's the unity ? THINK .

I was hoping that us Malaysians have changed the 'ala tkpe lah' attitude just fr tonight earlier . but NOO , they continued . WHY ?! I was at Star Cafe in USJ 9 during earth hour and i ws imagining that they will off the lights but it ws already 8.31pm and the lights were still on . I ws kind of confused . Petronas and Shell were the only ones who participated . I ws happy SEDIKIT la .

IF i am the General Manager of Tenaga Nasional , I'll purposely shut off all the lights in Malaysia . Suits Malaysian residents . Konon2 ada blackout . They were asked to shut off the lights for ONLY ONE HOUR , but why refuse ? what are you people trying to prove ? Seriously i HATE their way of thinking . One word in malay , KOLOT .

Oh how i wish i am in a diff country and not here .

I AM SOOOOOO DISAPPOINTED !

Haih , enough dh . Hha , i am very sensitive about unacceptable mentalities . Seriously .
I feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel tired so i am stopping here , till then .

Imagine YOU living in a world similar to this . Please people , CHANGE FOR THE BETTER . Help while you can . Change the mentality fr the best outcome .

p/s : i am trying to make a sensible point here .

Loves . Out .

exorcise me

2009-03-21T16:20:00.006+08:00

I am currently watching the movie The Exorcist and hell it is creepy . haha , i ws longing to watch this movie since forever so ive finally got a chance to rent this movie and scare myself . my sister is now cooking macaroni and some stuff stuffs , so im slipping one blog entry here . i rented this movie at VidoeEzy so anyone who's been wanting to watch any old movies where you think you won't find them at any local dvd seller who likes to bug you when you're eating and say "dvd dvd ?" , go fine the movies in VideoEzy bcse the workers there wont disturb you by saying "dvd dvd ?" or "karipap karipap ?" haha . anyone who always go to carlos would know , sorry abg dvd , you still rock my socks :)

SO , back to my exorcism story , this is based on a true story of Anneliese Michel from Germany i think , she was possesed from 17 years old to 23 years old . quite a strong spirit thre right ? well , i checked out her vid in youtube and she looked horrible . she died for the cause of dehydration and malnutrition . well , obviouslyyy , she got possesed fr 6 years and not eating fr 6 years , do you think you can survive ? anyway , go check the vids out in youtube , they put her real voice while she was possessed there . sounds like shit ! haha well then , let's see the pictures . i suggest you to go to my fav store called VideoEzy and rent this movie . *haha promoting :) VideoEzy should pay me man .

these are the images from the movie .

DAMN creepy kan ?

and these are the images of Anneliese Michel , may her soul rest in peace .

this is her bfre getting possessed

after

and lastly ,

ehehe , :)

currently i am obsessed with katy perry's song which is thinking of you . i just understood that the lyrics are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sad . it made me recalled about my time when i was like that . ONCE APON A TIME AGO la , not now . now im happy with ze bastard i LOVE :)

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
stay....

sad , i know . whatever . they have nothing to do with my life now . thank god :)

now im going to continue watching the movie while getting myself fat by eating . HA HA HA .

loves . out .

rumah manis rumah

2009-03-19T14:02:00.004+08:00

GENTING WAS SUPER COOOOOOL

and seriously , by cool i do mean cool . haha . okay tk fhm . three days two nights will be treasured forever man :) i love them .

i cant really tell you guys abt the details but then , it ws a typical genting trip la except i went with all the monkeys . haha . they were crazy and it humiliates me to say that they're with me . CHEH tkde la .

here're the pictures , mls nk tulis pnjg2 , haha .

pictures mls nk upload bnyk2 . haha .

loves . out .

baby here i comeee

2009-03-15T12:01:00.004+08:00

Well fellow friends , tmr is the day that i have been waiting foorr ! haha , ill be off to Genting Highlands with ze friends/classmates . i hopeee that i'll have fun and get monayh frm the mother . haha . i'll update you guys with a blog and pictures . i am going to miss my 5 babies and they are Teyra BabyTashaQairulTiqot . *cey pdhl prgi 3 hri je . SO WHAT !? i am going to miss them jugak :)

aannnnddd , ATIYAH FARTINI , wait for me okay ? i promise you when i come back i'll lepaklepak with you okay baby ? i miss youuuuuuuu <3

are you thrilled ? are ya ? are ya ?! hahah *over semangated , sorry -.-

loves . out .

assalamualaikum,

2009-03-07T20:32:00.003+08:00

people , i have cut my haaiiirr !! hahaha , its supersuperSHORT ! i'll give you guys a little sneak peak :)

this is before and this is after , short huh ?

oh ya , Genting Trip has been confirmed ! all included , cool right ? i know , the SuperPeoples like fana , rifdi , chui shen , yan ling and i really does know how to roll *wink wink* we're leaving on the 16th morning and be coming back on the 18th . i hope i'll have fun . can't wait !

loves . out !

2009-03-07T00:29:00.003+08:00

larghve

it has been a long time since ive blogged . such a sad sad me . i know , right ? haha , carry on with my sadness people !

i have been thinking abt this thing i want to share with you all fr days !! i just cant accept the bloody fact . guess whats it abt ? well , here's my story goess ..

on a thursday afternoon , it ws raining and while walking to get my ass out of that school , rifdi bullied me and this other girl by squirting water FROM HIS WATER BOTTLE to the girls' kain sekolah . bad right ? naughty boy btul . ANYWHOOO , me acap and azim decided to board my all-time fav school bus , M23 early as i have nothing to do so might as well i just naik the bus THINKING THAT I CAN GO HOME EARLY than i usually do . on that thursday we finished school early bcse our exam week has just started . so fahamfaham sndri lah ya . SO , the minute i boarded the bus , it ws half full of kanak-kanaks . there's this one standard 3 LITTLE boy whom i thought was decent and very cute adorable semua2 tu lah !

BUT , i was wrong . he was LOUD and ANNOYING . at first i ws all "ya allah comel nyaaa" bcse alaa biasa la kan budak-budak kecik nk annoying and all . but after 1o minutes or so , he ws pulling my tail hard man ! seriously , he ws saying things that are so lame and can make you go BOOM ! but i just kept quiet la bcse he is just a small boy . he was making noise with this other standard 3 boy whom i think is not so cute . haha i dont want to say ugly bcse i don't want my son to be ugly , ala faham sndri la malas nk explain .

his friend and him ws annoying every single person in the bus . i know this bcse i cn see it frm evryones faces . mcm "issshhhh cabut jugak kepala dia ni" . i don't know why but there's this other standard 4 kid (i know , a lot of kids , so imagine me going home everyday listening to their sharp and LOUD voices , TORTURE) . back to the pityful stry . the standard 4 kid kept hitting these two small boys and i don't understand why . maybe he got too tak tahan kot ? so at one time when maybe he pinched the 'so-call-cute boy' a little bit too hard , the 'so-call-cute boy' said , "ehhh bengang btul la aku , merah niiii , tgk !! *at this time he was showing his ugly frnd la* " then at one point he burst and then went hitting the standard 4 boy who was also , i admit , ugleyyh . hehehhee . konon nk jd 'gangster bas sekolah' la . he konon-konon punched the bigger boy . hha , like i cn see mmg tk sakit la kn . LASTY , the standard 4 kid , idk wht he did but the 'so-call-cute boy's hands was red all over and there're scratches . i cn say it was quite bad fr a small kid .

that part it was acceptable , but this part . THIS part , when the standard 3 boy said words like fuck , pantat , buto , and showing his middle finger and all sorts . it ws pretty shocking fr me bcse compared to me when i was standard 3 , i don't even know what's the meaning of those words .

kids nowadays , i cn see that they're hving this one sort of a attitude problem and i'm sad jst knowing that i cnt do anything to change the world . *ceycey* haha . but seriously , if somehow my son or daughter speak that kind of vulgar languages , i'll just take the scissors and ugut nk potong mulut dia betul2 , eventhough everyone here knows tht i won't do that . saja nk tnjuk gangster :)

AND SO , tommorow i'm going to go and cut my hair off short ! hee . i know what you guys'll say , tk hbis2 potong rmbut je kjee . well , i want something new everytime . blame me fr that .

it is currently 2:15 am . and Syazwan just went to bed . and i am too . Goodnight peeps .

loves . out .

sorry seems to be the hardest word

2009-02-24T15:53:00.003+08:00

FINALLY , things has been settled . i so so thank god for that . going to put up 'sujud syukur' in my calendar since ive been so occupied with life . masyaallah , ibadah juga adalah hidup so yea , struggling to fit in my solat time :)

last monday i went to Stadium Matsushita , ala , yesterday fr short . haha , ANYWAY , i kept guessing , why Matsushita ? why not ? shah alam ? (since its located thre) or why not Stadium Berjaya ? or better , Stadium Terunggul ? we're in Malaysia fr god's sake , not Japan . i don't understand these people who think it's cool to put a name like that . okay moving on , i went thre fr MSSD and dont get me wrong , i did not go thre to berjuang fr my school but to berjuang fr the school's magazine . aha , i ws thre to snap pictures . i know it sounds lame but it ws tiring okay ! like seriously , being a photographer ni memenatkan lah ! CEY ,

so tmr im planning to go there in pair with Mr. Hilmanio bcse going thre makes my eye clean . get it ? cuci mata ? ......................................... how LAME i know . dh abaikan .

aaaannnd i dnt have anything so say anymore now except im sorry .

plus i love my peoples who loves me *wink wink* :))

loves . out .

these pictures are the pictures ive swore i wont put in up anywhre in public , but then again , what are thre to be ashamed of ? ECEY , yeryer je sue ni .

those are my old photos and please people , dont laugh . haha

feel it

2009-02-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

:)
is it better this way ?

loves . out .

2009-02-15T20:00:00.003+08:00

"you make me so proud"

why is it that i could never hear you guys say that ? bcse im not making you guys proud . yea , im just a spoilt fucked up girl kan ? hooray , -.-

Valentines day was perfect :) i love him more and moreee each day ! seriously , i wouldnt want anybody else even if he has money as tall as Mount Everest or he has 25 lamborghinies . well psl money tu i might consider la :p haha no la , i am satisfied enough with my very own Syazwan . yes i know he doesnt have any lamborghini or money . HAHA , dh dropping it and stopping it b . sorry , i love you more than i love you bfre . like duh ? okay i merepek but yea , you know how much i love you kan b ? you're perfect and you're the best sayang . i dont want no one else . eeeeeee i love you lah setan ! oh ya , i got a ring frm him , haha comel i know :p

i love my budak kecik semangat :)

tmr's school day , sheeeeeshhh . its okay , i have another 9 months to go !

loves . out .

p/s : and teyra , i would do anything fr you bby . whatever it takes , i love you .

new name for me

2009-02-07T21:40:00.004+08:00

new name for me : Girlf adik focker . *how sad i know*

new task in this house : to be a maid . *fork you*

things have changed lately . yes i know thats unacceptable for me , but instead of throwing tantrums or sulking , i'd rather stay cool and show them how i roll . (ceh , cm jonas brothers plk) haha , i mean , i want then to understand without me telling but just showing . ahh you get what i mean . in this house , eventhough i follow and akur in everything that they said , and mainly , BELAJAR , they still have a hard time to let me out easily . like wtf doh ? i studied , i always do what you 3 asks me to . what more ? I DONT EFFING UNDERSTAND . well why not , if you guys have so many things that unsatisfies you guys , give a whole book will you ? sheeshh .

and , i know i missed out a lot of things between you guys but heck , do you guys have to LET me feel left out . yes i know , after reading what i have to say here , will make you guys want to talk or should i say 'discuss' this behind my back but i don't care . there's no evil or backstabbing reasons on why i am saying this publicly but , i dont know . pile it together . eventhough i have nothing against it but im sure any of you would feel the same thing if you were me . for me , i KNOW i didnt do nothing wrong and maybe you guys didnt say that i did . if somehow you guys will or want to feel offended by this and again , be mad at me on why do i have to post it up on my blog but hey , i am not the only who posts my own problem in my own blog . but i want you guys to know that i dont wish to find faults , just expressing here . and yeah , you make me feel as if im out of the circle . good job .

why is the world so cruel i might say ? yeah , be happy . bcse im not .

WHATEVER

SO , syazwan is in Pangkor now , having fuunnn , without mee . haha whatever , which makes me so so bored since ive been left out kan kaan ? again , wtv .

hah , next upcoming saturday is The Valentines Day :) luckily i already have my valentine so i dont have to go through all the trouble to find one . jyeah baby .

about the genting trip ! homg , its driving me crazy ! i have to save money to go thre and plus to sunburst . and thats why i am asking my goodgood friend to get me one free ticket . that is if he can , oh how i wish wish he can . i wnt to gooooo ! :(

i dont seem to have any interesting topic anymore to say so ciao bro . haha :p

loves . out .

i'll try to find some pics frm last week with my friends . oh , sorry , we didnt took any bcse , haih mls nk cr gduh . bye .

randomized

comel kan ? HAHA

*emotional meltdown*
fuck it .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYKU SAYANG

2009-01-28T01:16:00.002+08:00

Saya , Tengku Suraya Hani berada disini ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Lahir kepada rakan karib saya yg bernama Fara Nabira Ruslizan yg baru sahaja menyambut hari lahir beliau yg ke-17 . bermaksud beliau dibenarkan di sisi undang2 untuk mengambil lesen untuk membawa kenderaan di negara Malaysia . Ini juga bermaksud bahawasanya jika beliau sudah mempunyai sebarang kenderaan bermotor , beliau akan menjadi pemandu saya . ehehe , tidaklah , saya hanya bergurau sahaja . Saya sayang akan beliau teramat - amat walaupun saya hanya mengenali beliau tidak lebih daripada satu tahun yg juga sama dengan 12 bulan . Beliau merupakan rakan karib saya yg terunggul , wahh ayat , ya betul , terunggul ya rakan - rakan . biar saya ulang , TERUNGGUL . jadi saya ingin menyatakan di sini bahawa ya benar , sayang saya kepada beliau haya kurang 0.0000001% daripada sayang saya kepada teman lelaki saya yang bernama Syazwan , tetapi beliau tetap menjadi nombor 2 dihati saya . nombor 1 adalah Allah kerana saya adalah org Islam dan tidak sepatutnya untuk saya menyayangi org lebih drpd yg Maha Besar , saya juga ingin ...

Sumpah dh malas nk fkir ayat2 power melayu . haha , but you guys have to admit that my Bahasa Melayu is a bit better than it is supposed to be . i mean , based on my looks i dont think i look like one who masters that Language . cey perasan . haha . so basically the message that im trying to give out here is that i LALALALALALALOVEEE my babyfaraku sayaaang ! and she just turned 17 ! good news eyy , b wink wink b ;p haha

and family , i am going to blog about the day since i dont think you trust me -.- dhdh stop it and drop it ;p hahaha

so i woke up around 10:51am thinking that i ws already late ! i rushed and rushed and rushed till the time when i ws wearing my eyeliner and it messed up ! it took me half an hour to get my eyeliner done . sheeshh , then bhatrisyea's mum picked me up around 12 something ? got to sunway , Bhatrisyea , Teyra , Tiqot and I straight away went to Redbox and met Qairul Ain and Qairul Anwar . Teyra wore her torn pumps , i dont understand why she has to wear that when she has A LOT and i really do mean A LOT of footwear at home . but still , yg dh rosak tu jugak dia nk pkai . we bought the YUHUUUUUU GAM *bak kata aiman* haha and glued her pumps up . problem yilek . we went to buy baby's donuts cake at J.co . well im proud to say that it ws MY IDEA to buy the donuts since eating cake on birthdays are getting boring . haha , so b , thanks to me eh ;p haha . went to redbox once again and setted up those donuts . we sang dances while waiting fr baby . well dh kata surprise kan ? kne la sakit skit . haha jk .

when she arrived at that time , FAJRAN ws knon2 jd bouncer ah time tu tk bg i masuk . he stood in front of the door with the big body of his and tried his hardest to NOT let me in . so when baby ws actually there i struggled jugak nk masuk . haha lps nk fnish everything , i kicked him hard ! i pn gedang okay ! haha ,

so baby went into the room with the :O face . haha comel b comel . tkpe . haha , we had fun la time tu . like HOWYEAH , aha .

after that we went to Subway and ateeeee . since they were all heading back , i followed Syazwan to ss19 to watch him jamm . b seriously dont kembang2 eh when i say this ;

COOL GILA SIAAAL BOYF AKUU MAIN GUITAR ! hahah , poyo i know . i mean jari dia mcm jelly okay ! ahah , and i love you :)

at that time i cant help myself to laugh at Syeikh . he's so funny maaan !! like seriously . after that i wanted to see my dad's house since we were at ss19 already . we walked to usj4's 7 eleven and called a cab to crlos bcse baby wanted to treat us . it has been a while since ive been there , so mcm rndu sikit sikit la . haha , duh -.- bsn nya ? ;)

smpai crlos , it ws closed and i dnt know why . lepak lepak , went home . AND THAT WAS IT ! innocent kan ?

so objective , BABYFARA , happy belated and i love you like Howyeah ! <3

run

2009-01-24T00:08:00.006+08:00

PROBLEMS ! they are smothering me too much in this past week , give me a break please .

to start off , last week Friday , it is all about the "TRUE FRIENDS" crisis , mind me if any of you guys terasa .

Monday , well let's see , i attended Mathematics tuition and the teacher was awful . i recommend that he should just stay home and play chess while drinking chinese tea and watch chinese drama . sheeshh ,

Tuesday , while i was having problems of my own , my very very bestfriend was having his . it was about him and his girlf , which i cn say WAS my bestf ? idk . haha

Wednesday , i started to no to talk to certain in this house regarding his "OH-SO-POLITE" attitude . try not to be so arrogant and SNOBBISH will you ? THINK about others and not only yourself .

Thursday , fought with syazwan but it ws settled at last , haha .

Friday , well today , his parents saw me at Pappa Rich . oh my god , i feel so stupid and dumb . i'm sorry auntie , uncle . i didn't know .

so , my moodswing is kind of going all rocky currently and its victim is my beloved Nik . i'm sorry and you know i love you kan kan ? haha , okay diam .

my class now is organising a class trip to genting on the semester break in March . and i'm handling it . damn , haha i cnt do it on my own la dey . but i seriously hope that this time , IT WILL HAPPEN . plus helmi nk pegi sgt bcse nk isap kok kt sna . bangang .

i dnt know wht to say , haha .

loves . out .

i miss you . i miss this .

tacoma tacoma

2009-01-17T18:58:00.003+08:00

PHYSICS ,
i just learnt chapter 1 on waves i think in Physics , and my tution teacher named Gurev Singh , i think , showed the class i was in the vid of Tacoma Bridge collapsing in 1940 . this stunned me bcse i've nver seen anything like this bfre . and the reason of this happened is Resonance . it took me quite a while to understand this sub-topic . haha , i know i'm slow but seriously this Resonance thingy is hard to understand and hard fr me to accept in my old common head . eheh , pardon me . when i watched the vid fr the first time , my jaw was practically hanging . embarassing yes but i ws dumb-founded . i asked the teacher a several times bfre i kept quiet . haha , probably the class ws like "apa bnde la dia ni ," in their EVIL minds . please understand me , i'm oldschooled , this high-tech modern wawasan 2020 thingy cnt seem to find a spot in my mind to settle in easily . haha , okay i'm exaggerating . I GOT IT LA , saja je nk tny soalan konon2 concentrate dlm class , haha now that's stupid . enough , over .

i'll insert this post with the vid , BE AMAZED ! haha ,

loves out

like oh my god

2009-01-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

LIKE OH MY GODD , i cnt belieeveeeee myself that i'm literally updating my blog since like forever ? hahaha , there're so much fr me to say but sadly , i am too lazy to type it all out and i KNOW that somehow if i do spill everything , you guys might not have the energy to go line by line and actually reaaaddd it right ? haha ,

these past few weeks have been great i must say . well , as you all know , school has started fr over 2 weeks and i've adapted half of me to the school life , eceyy . haha . there's this one time that i feel and i think "YA ALLAH TAK SABAR LA SIAAL NK HABIS SEKOLAH , " . haha and the other part of me says " shit la , tnggl setahun je nk sekolah , nnt dh tkde rehat2 sama2 , tkde lepak2 lepas balik sekolah , nnt sme busy ngn life masingmasing (pastu mula la rasa mcm nk mengelarkan air mata dn mucus yg melimpah limpah tp cntrol sbb tk suka jd emo-freak) " i knw the second part of me sounds like The Mothers who'll lecture you everytime you say that you're lazy to go school or etc . i know it's true so you guys MUST agree with me , heh .

i'm currently trying to get myself busy with 'kokulikulum' -bak kata Pn. Yee- haha , to get marks fr my IPTA . is it ? alaa , senang cerita to get myself into Local Universities . Malaysians citizens are getting more and more lustful these days so they produce more offsprings and they menyusahkan myself to study hard so that i could get into one University . get a life please , aceyy ;)

i've started to take classes at Tutorial Lee and it's quite good . i can understand Physics and Chemistry fr once in my life ! fr the first time i can answer the questions without anybody helping me . cool kan ? hee .

Syazwan and I ? we're good . like what i've said to Yudesh , i can't say that i'm fully happy but i can say that i'm satisfied :) i love you .

okay i refuse to type any longer so i'll leave you guys with some new years' pictures . god knows when will i update my blog . sorry readers !

loves , out .

like omg HAHA

2008-12-24T16:52:00.003+08:00

okay , while i was on my way back frm Langkawi , there's this one supersupersuperduper cute baby ! and only god knows how much i love babies ! :) now i'm just waiting fr my eldest sister to get married then only the babies come crawling . jyeah babeyh ! hee . so this is the picture of the bayi .

see how cute is he ! i wish that my baby wld be like that , but much much cuter so tht i cn mould him alive . eheh .
we stopped by at kedah bcse my auntie's house is thre . she ws having her family's family day . saja nk mengacau . hee . and there's this other baby who's in love with my brother . sheesh . haha , but she's cuteee !!

haihh , i can't wait to get my own baby ;)

loves . out !

back home where i belong baby

2008-12-22T16:58:00.014+08:00

I AM BACK HERE BABY !

so , im back frm langkawi ! miss me ? haha . i so so so miss my home , my friends , my room , my everything back here in subang . alaa , kecoh2 pn i only went thre fr 3 days . hee .

i'm gonna do a recap when im in langkawi . enjoy :)

thursday night on 10pm something we made a move . drove up to nearly 6 hrs i think to Kuala Perlis' jetty . we arrived there around 6am , woah ws i tired ? only god knows . but alahh , i wasn't the one whoe drove from subang kan kan ? hha . parked the car and walked to the jetty , it was stinky man i swear ! it smells like ikan masin you know ? ew btl . bought the tickets and at 7.30am we were on our way to Langkawi ! jyeah babeyh . i don't know why , it was FREEZING like as if i'm in the north pole being nude . seriously ! i can say that the ferry ws being an alternative freezer to freeze our meats . blergh .

AND SO , we arrived in Langkawi and it was still cold . i put my shades on and the sweater stays . how weird right ? aha . it's like i'm confused wether is it cold or hot ?

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

ehehe , wink wink . then we wanted to rent a car , so we waited for this dude named Pak Ndak i think , aha , while waiting , we got ourselves a HOT cup of cocoa and coffee . heaveeeennnnn !

the Pak Ndak came with a iswara . like come on maann ! don't expect us to go around Langkawi Island with just sn iswara ? and plus we were a group of 5 ! sooo , they searched fr another car and we waited ,
at last , abang got a wira MANUAL ! haha , pity them who has to drive . abang drove to the hotel and we have to check in after 2 and it ws just 11 something at that hour . soooo , we went to Makam Mahsuri after that just to kill time :)

then after Makam Mahsuri , we went back to our hotel and checked in . got into the room and CHARGED MY PHONEE ! hahah , it went dead while i was at Makam Mahsuri . sheeshh .
we were sooo tired bcse , ala imagine la , a journey from subang to langkawi island okay ! what do you expect ?
i think i ws one of them who slept early , hha . they were taking so long bathing , one after another . so lambaatt ! i'd rather sleep stinkily than wait . so , slept lah . when i woke up , sme dh kong habis . before anything happens , i went to bathe and without expecting anything , i wore my shorts and tank top lah bcse i thought that i'm going to continue being half-dead . haha . BUT one by one woke up and someone i cant remember who decided that he/she wanted to go to the beach . my attire at that mcm similar nk go to the beach , so watever la kan . haha . waited till everyone is ready , then we walked to the beach :)

it ws just me and abang who went into the water . well i wasn't that much of a beach lover , so i went on just to teman abang la . while i was in the water for like 5 mins , something bit my thigh ! i went WATTAFFUUUCCKKK ?????! haha , i hate live fishes . they're so slimy and idk , lembik ? eww . haha , so i ran out frm the water and went back in for one last time . something bit me again ! but this time , it ws at somewhre else . damn fishes , i went out and never again i got in the water . it went dark so we walked back to the hotel , some crisis . wtv wtv , that night we went McDonald hunting bcse abang wanted to eat Prosperity Burger :)
got ourselves each a prosperity burger , semua diam . haha . went back to the hotel and slept till the next day :)

we woke up early that day and as usual , i'll be the one who will only wake up once everyone is ready . haha , that's just me whenever i'm on vacation :)
the reason that we HAVE to wake up early was bcse mama was afraid the breakfast buffet wld be finished by the hotel occupiers . ehehhe . saja je exaggerate .
another reason was bcse we wouldn't want to be late fr the cable car ride bcse we got warned by one of langkawi-borned people that we shouldn't and wouldn't want to be late fr the cable car ride since it will be crowded if we're late . SO , got to the cable car station and it was closed due to windy weather . we went window shopping whilst waiting fr it to re-open .
so i saw they were already queuing up fr the tickets , so i went thre and queued ( did i spell that rught ? ) . at last , we were one of the first riders . cool kan ? haha ,
the cable car in langkawi is the most highest fr me , i think . it goes all the way up to the peak of the mountain alright . so now you tell me wether was it high or was it not ?
plus , me being afraid of heights made it a lot harder fr me to tahan the cringe . haha , damn .
at the highest peak , they built one 'jambatan gantung' . and omg , it took me like 20 mins to get myself to the other end , i ws hanging to the handrail with my life ! i didn't let go at all ! and i was confused + jealous + angry to them peoples who can walk all the way to end with no fear at all ! they walked just like we were on ground zero . eheh , what's ground zero actually ? WHAT I MEANT was , they walked like jalan2 cari makan . even the toddlers was walking while pandang kiri pandang kanan mcm nothing ! omg only god knows how i felt at that time . when i got to the other end , fr the second time in my life my knee was shaking or should i say vibrating ? haha , my first time was when i ws goal-keeping in the MSSS , wakil sekolah jela , but still ! handball kot ?
back to my story , and i had to walk back to the station , which means , one more time of hanging to my life on the handrail . hha , it ws hell i tell you . and the wind there ws practically blowing me off the mountain . thanks to my big big feet , i stood strong , wink wink . haha

now tell me , would you be cringing if you were me ?

and that ends our day :) for the next day is abang's birthday , we went to this place called 'rasa' to have a nice dinner and celebrate his birthday la . countdown la kan . haha
sadly , the service was so horrible and slow and mind challenging bcse we were being so patient la kan , haihhh . guys , never ever ever go thre fr food . BUT i think kat sana ada shisha so mcm best jgak la kan . haha ;p
it was hard to find a decent cake in langkawi bcse i dnt think people in langkawi need cakes . haha , so we bought one cikai one . luckily it was good :)

abg got his new edition of MU jersey . happy la tu . haha .
tmr is our going back home day so , we checked out frm the hotel and then went to the jetty . tk sempat breakfast pn :( hahah , for someone like me who loves to eat la kan ? wink wink ! haha . so , we arrived at the jetty and then went to the Dataran Lang fr awhile , i just figured that the name Langkawi came frm heLANG , hahahah , eventhough abang has mentioned it nearly 10 times in the car , i must be sleeping kot . haha ,

and the rest mls nk ckp dh . this is a long post okay ! haha , loves out !

p/s : guys , if you haven't noticed , my left eye ws swollen due to this disease called ketumbit . haha , and i got fatter while i ws in langkawi -.-

there were you , looking at me

2008-12-18T16:51:00.003+08:00

Darlings , i am off to Langkawi fr a few days to have a family vacation . since this is my first time going to langkawi , i am feeling quite excited . lame i know . haha so what ? plus i was packing my stuffs tadi and at first i put like 13 shirts in my luggage . talk about travelling light here people ! haha , so increased my clothes bit by bit , it hurts so much fr me not to bring extra clothes but i have to , yes i must . fr the sake of my own good . haha , wtf ?

oh how i wish that i'll have fun there :) BUT sadly , my eye hurts , yes friends , my MATA hurts . apahaaal ? now my left eye is aching eveytime i blink . sucks BIG TIME ! haih , luckily it is not THAT obvious . so i cn cover them with my fringe lah . i know god loves me , hee :)

before i'm going to langkawi , i went out with Syazwan yesterday . alaa we went to taipan and lepak-ed here and there je . nothing much . so wtv lah kan , at first i woke up around 11:58am i think and MyGodd my eyes were sooo heavy , it is like the sandman has put two big sand bags on each of my eye . haih . woke up got ready and all , i waited fr Auntie Dahnyor to pick me up *wink wink nama cool kan ?* haha , i know , i love her name too ! fyi , Auntie Dahnyor is Syazwan's mother :) she sent us to taipan , and so we had lunch at McD bcse i wanted to eat their prosperity burger ! hee . as you all know , prosperity burger will only be sell when it is the chinese new years' season . LIMITED ! so eat as much as you cn now bcse it will be another one whole year to wait fr them again , haih . sengaja je oh :s
we ate , we talked , we laughed , we joked :) and so the hooligan boys came . haha , they're Zaf , HisyamtheHagrid , Rifdi and Helmi came buat bising . they bluetoothed some SUE-TUPID vids and for some unstateble reasons , they wanted to go lepak dkat Burger King's upper floor . haha , so we went there and just sat mcm org bodo . but they all made stupid silly lilly jokes that cracked me up mcm kacangtanah . had fun :) oh ya , we were bored so THEY not we , haha , pranked call some people and one of them was my Beloved Samira . i'm so sorry syg , marah rifdi jgn marah i . hee .
And so HisyamtheHagrid , Aleef , Helmi , Rifdi went to summit bcse they wanted to watch Transporter 3 . haha , by that Syazwan , Zaf and I went to minuminum at Kopitiam . haha , after 10 mins , Zaf went home and i emo-ed with Syazwan . hee . Baby , Teyra , Tasha came a bit late like pukul 8 like that ? yeay , so before i went to langkawi i've met my 5 babies and that includes Yudesh , gay , i know desh but what to do , you're my bestf that i sayang maa ? ;)
went home by walking with Teyra and Desh . and guess what ?! i climbed the Arcadia Apartment's wall ALL BY MYSELF . well , teyra ws too small to help me and yudesh ws too 'tak-gedang' to help me . hahaha ! too bad ;p
i went home around 1:37am ? i had fun :)

oh ya , to Afira and Aimeen , i'm so sorry that Syazwan pranked call Afira . he didn't know that Afira was Aimeen's girlf . so yea , i was the one who dared him to call anyone . again , i'm sorry . no hard feelings ya :)

and as fr you Mr. Nik , you thank god that i can't leave you . haha . no la , i can't let you go lah idiot . get it in your mind . whatever spell that you've put on me , i'm saying now that it's working . you silly lilly , i hate you :)

so , i've SOME pictures frm yesterday , so i'll just post it here i guess .

loves . out !

2008-12-17T02:20:00.004+08:00

Tagged by : Samira Tuan Hassan <3

1. Do you think that you're hot ?
hm , you think ? haha

2. Upload a favourite picture of you

3. Why do you like this picture ?
oh i dnt know , i just picked one . haha

4. When was the last time you ate pizza ?
haha i cnt remember

5. What was the last song you listened to ?
haha , Brandy - Have You Ever

6. What are you doing now besides this ?
myspace like duh haha

7. What name would you prefer besides yours ?
idk , i love mine :)

People i've tagged :
1. Teyra
2. BabyFara
3. Yudesh
4. Fana
5. Hisyam

8. Who is number 1 ?
practically my life

9. Number 3 is having a relationship with ?
my life :) hahaha

10. Say something about number 5
his english sucks ! HAHAHA , no la hisyam :p

11. How about number 4
the best classmate ;)

12. Who is number 2 ?
not my life but my food ! nyummy ;p

so are you gonna be my girl ?

2008-12-16T20:22:00.004+08:00

just confirmed with baby bout the family suite on new year :) so my new year is going to be a fun one compared to my new year celebration last year . so ,

going to have fun on new year , CHECK

boyf on new year *wink wink* , CHECK

TRUE FRIENDS on new year , CHECK

crazy friends on new year , CHECK

outfit for new year , KIV

$$$ fr new year ? , urhh KIV

haha , so my checklist is not that perfect YET ! and by that i cant be happy :) okay scratch the smiley , :s

currently i am going to be alone tonight , so am i lonesome tonight ? yes , sadly . haha , ever heard of that elvis song ? elvis kan ? im not sure myself so watever .

ive just cut my fringe short :((((((((( i look like a horidious cow ! HAHAHA , a wild child's language ;D

oh ya , i love these words ,

To my love sue ;

I pledge to have a bet with you ,
if i ever leave you ,
ill pay you one million ,
this i promise you ,
and this is my bet with you sue .

But tht wont happen ,
because in another 10 yrs ,
which will make me 25 and you 26 ,
you will be my beloved wife ,
and you will have to pay up a million bucks .
and this will make me rich , haha

and to everyone out there ,

this is my bet to sue .

But through the ups and downs we have , i just want you to know tht i will always love you , with all of my heart and soul . you mean the world to me , and i will love you till the end of time tengku suraya hanie (:

i love you too much b , hee .

okay im going to upload the pictures frm baby's bbq :)

loves . out !

i am so sorry

2008-12-13T18:45:00.003+08:00

try to get loose

i miss blogging like a whole lot ! ive been neglecting this poor poor blog , im so sorry darl . hee :)

SO , tonight i'll be going to babyfara's house bcse her sister is having a barbeque and baby is inviting the girls i suppose . gambar gambar eh tasha eh . hha .

these past few days was soooo dull ! i cn believe that my life is basically boring and i have nothing to do except onlining , watching tv , sleep , eat yadayadayada .. boring , i know .

i am so sorry readers , i dont have any interesting to blog about now :(( im saaaadd !

OH YA ! something just came up ! ehehehe ,

he broke my heart , he has hurt me so bad , he's like that . i know i cant change him but can you tell me wether is it worth it all ? is he ??! tell me people , i need some answers ! this is crucial honey , help me !

i just finished bathing and when i came down , i got " kejap nya hani mndi ? " frm the brother . haha . i mean , he was being sarcastic i must say . then they were talking and teasing me . i dont know why today i have the mood to be supersuperSUPER-extra cleaann ! not that im not on the daily basis , but i spent like cn i say half an our today in the bathroom ? haha , wow ;)

i dont know why im telling you guys about my bathing hours but , haha just to make it more interesting . is it ? you tell me .

OKAY i dont have NOTHING to say more .

loves . out :)

making my way through the crowd to you

2008-12-10T21:48:00.004+08:00

i love you sayang .

so tell me , would you call back if you knew i was down on the streets with blood all over me ? tell me now tell me here right this instant !

haha , so there i was being all emo-ish about him not calling back eventhough he knows that i got pulled by those men . oh the dilemma . dramatic , its my middle name though . haha !

oh , so after reading some funny and interesting blogs , i've realised that my blog is not entertaining enough and it is filled with the word 'haha' , 'hehe' , 'aha' and those sorts . what are my motives ? i myself don't know . big HAHA to me ! :))

SO , i just got back from teyra's house . i sleptover at her house fr two nights ! enjoyed myself much ? quite la . haha . at first , it was 'Hari Raya Haji' and teyra invited me bcse her family is holding a feast fr Hari Raya la . i went there and ate , went to take her SECOND kitten home from my auntie's house , went back to teyra's crib and ate AGAIN , biasa la , "mcm tk kenal sue kan ?" . why am i not surprised if any of you guys really does say that ? haha , bfre i make a fool out of myself , might as well i change the topic . sheesh , you guys just like to bully me right -.-

Syazwan is back here in Subang ! oh happy nya aku :) haha , he said that his dad drove from kelantan to subang fr only 4 hours ? thats not logic actually b . i've been thinking non-stop about that frm the minute you told me . eventhough it is just small stuffs , but for me who goes back to kelantan often i must say , that's not logic b , no not logic at all ! it bothers me so much ! haha , seriously , maybe his dad was trying to reach Kuala Lumpur as fast as he could bcse he wants to use KL's toilet since syazwan said that his kampung punya toilet was dirty ? omg am i too mean to say that ? did i just insulted Mr. Nik Azmi's father's toilet ? i hope not . i'm so sorry uncle . my apologies .

i want to upload one specific picture here but , it is in his phoneee :( man , i hope you're kind enough to transfer the photo and give it to me since i look nice in it . hee :)

Oh gosh , school is starting anytime soon and i am terrified like nobody's business here people ! i'll be in form 5 and going to take my big big BIG exam in the end of the year . can i just use a time machine and go back and forth whenever i want but skip the exams . please oh please ? okay i sound very the ridiculous here , pardon me . HAHA .

i have nothing interesting here . and ive been watching my HAHAs HEHEs and AHAs . can i let it all out rght now ? HEHEHEHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHAHAHAHHAHAHRHEEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHE ,

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okay now im good :)

2008-12-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

newsflash : my hair , well to be specific , my fringe is being such a total bitch + slut to me in these past few days . URGH !

okay , lets talk about something that is much more interesting besides my hair ! haha , soo , yesterday we did something , i must say , something INTERESTING kan babygirl kan ? hahaha , it ought to be a secret between us only buuut , hahh sorry no exceptions . haha , nothing much maybe ? syazwan was pissed at me for doing that but ehehe , bukan selalu la bb . chill aa .

SO ! moving on , oh god , they way that ive put it is like it is sooo secretive . okay dh enough about the secret . the point of me updating ths insipid blog is just to upload my birthday pictures that , the only one that we all love and loves to call 'nek ain' has uploaded . wait wait , my sister just yelled "adikadiikkk , jom makaann . make make" *the 'make' is makan in kelantan yaa* so intervention sekejap ! ;)

ALRIGHT ! im back baby ! haha , mama cooked maggie , ummm nyummy nyummy . eehehehhe .

i dont know what to say now . OH YA , syazwan is in kelantan right now :( i cnt see him until tuesday . aww so sad i know . haha , he was sooooo fucking stressed up becse he ws FORCED to go back thre . alaaaa fr the ones who has read my old blog , should know how stressed i ws bcse it ws raya and i had no choice but to go back to kelantan . i mean like , imagine , mama's side of the family are all living in besut . well mostly lah . haha , and they were like living in this hutanhutan area . no ~~astro~~ . no ~~radio~~ . no ~~TV3~~ . no ~~shorts-wearing~~ . no ~~PHONE COVERAGE~~ . no fun things to do AT ALL ! try to feel my sufferings here people . one thing that we , us , kids who HAVE to go back to kelantan know is that kelantan is the most boring place ever in malaysia . i mean kelantan can beat cyberjaya okay ! and i think we all know that cyberjaya is the tempat for orangorang tua go and pay their bills , oh let me rephrase , their bills that WE'VE used . eheheheh , okay diam . i mean , please , there're nothing that'll build up my enthusiasm to go back thre . aha . so , enough about kelantan . hidup NIK AZIZ ! ;D

oh yah , ive been yapping about kelantan i almost frgot my boyfriend . eheh . AS I WERE SAYING , he's now there and he kept telling me that kampung dia gay la , bosan la apa la . the only reason that he doesnt wnt to balik kelantan was bcse of his kampung pnya dirty toilet . alaaa b , please la , wht do you expect ? haha . i have this one 'nenek saudara' , her houses' toilet , let me tell you with just two words , NO DOORS . haha ! imagine ! you'll have to mandi with the kain batiks and act all kampung girl-ish . mmg not me la kan ! haha but fr the sake of nk jaga all the neneks punya impression . haha , guess what will they USUALLY say when they see me eveytime ? "aloh come nyo anok tino kartining nii" "anok dagho dohh" "alohaholohalo molek nyoo" , so the results are me senyum tersipu-sipu malu malu like a what do they say ? kerang busuk ? hahaha , comel tak ? comel , i know ;p HAHAHAHAHAH dh i dnt wnt to sound like a loser and i know what will you guys say "mmg loser pn" duhh mcm tk kenal korang -.-

haha , so now . im tired of saying stupid things that i know have just wasted your time . sorry :)

see , i told you it ws all hard-dancing , loud-singing and pure-joy .

i love them all like fuck ! hehe . enough said :)

OH YA i so so so love the boy who my family says that he's soft . hee . i like LOVE you la babi ;D

love me for a lifetime

2008-12-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

nothing happened today so obviously i dnt have anything to bloody blog about ! hOMG ! i slept around 5 yesterday bcse i ws texting with syazwan , FR THE FIRST TIME , i slept late BUT i wsnt onlining ! eheheh , instead i ws painting my nails la , singing la , lipat2 baju la . ahah . 'sue tupid btl' . so around 4.30am it started to rain and i ws thinking "YA ALLAH ! gilaaa best if tdo !" haha . HA ! imagine , it ws pouring heavily here in putra heights but in usj11 it wsnt . weird taak ?! i told syazwan that he ws such a weirdo smpai hujan pn tknk turun . eheheh , jgn mara bang ;p

SO , woke up around 4 something ? hee i know , apa punya anak dara la -.- i get that ALL the time ! haha , got used to it daaahh , so you cant intimidate me no more ! eheh . okay diam , sooo , went downstairs , did what i had to do . haha , so around 6.30 i went fr a quick jog just to *kononkonon* kurangkan lemak bit by bit la . idk if thats true , but that belief kept me going . HAHA , i meant , by believing that i cn still eat and eat and eat without feeling guilty ! hahaha , sillysilly theory i know ! so what ? i HATE the feel of guiltiness when im eating , the time when i THINK that all the lemaklemakS frm the food will eventually get to my face and makes me look like a swollen tomato ? HAHA , dh dh ckup .

currently i am having this tiny itsy bitsy crisis with syazwan . haih , BOYFRIENDS , they cant live a day without CHOMPING up your last nerves ! man , give us a break please ! haha .

im a SOOOOOOOOOO missing the last phone that ive used now . i am willing to pay fr the repair cost please pleaseee ? haha , dhla whatever .

later , out .

current mood : PISSED no ?

oh ya , for the fellow smokers out there or in here , *wink wink* hahaha , i have two pictures fr you and three words 'katakan tak nak' . eehhehehehehe ;)

now im out fr real . sheesh .

one special special day fr me ;)

2008-12-04T03:55:00.000+08:00

It's my birthday and I'll do what I want to
Fuck you it's my birthday
Special holiday only for me
So do what I say
I'ts my party and I can cry if I want to, or leave
Fuck you, it's not your birthday
So do what I say ok
For 24 hours your wishing me well
364 days I'm in hell
oh well
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me

Leave me alone on my birthday
I'm goin to Denny's 10 times today
No tip, it's my birthday so do what I say

Thanks mom didn't have an abortion,
Or my birthday wouldn't be today
But I guess it's my good fortune
My birthday's today ok
For 24 hours your wishing me well
364 days I'm in hell, oh well
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me

(spank me, spank me, spank me, spank me, spank me, spank me)

Oh well, happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to--
Can't believe you forgot my birthday
It's my birthday and you're wreckin it
Now it's just like any other day ya didn't do what I say
How could you forget my birthday
That's really immature
Fuck you, for forgettin' my birthday
Ya didn't do what I say today
24 hours of no wishin well
Now 365 days I'm in hell oh well
Happy Birthday to me
Happy happy birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me!

these lyrics are for real you know ! haha , cool kan ? ;p

soo , i just wnt to say one thing ,. well , i'll only experience one sweet16 right ? haha , fr short I HAD THE GREATEST SWEET 16 EVER , it ws memorable . i seriously didnt expected that my frnds will hold a suprise party fr me . ohh im so touched ! ehehehe ,

SO , recap shall we ? ;)

AT FIRST , i ws being all emo-ish becaauussee , i ws so semangat-ed and i got very excited to hold a party fr my sweet16 . BUT , my frnds were like being all lazy , haha apa lagi *TERASA la kan , heheheheheh . like what ive said in one of my previous post , i got scolded by many of my frnds bcse i ws being so childish , mcm yudesh ckp "EMO FUCK SIAL YOU" . haha , best kan kne mcm tu ? thanks LOADS yudesh . haha nasib aku syg girlf kau dgn kau sekali , wink wink . haha . okay dh diam , back to MY emo story , punya lah emo nk mati , no one consoled me . hmph . LAGI LA NK EMO KAN ? haha , one drama after another , the BIG day arrives :|

so , it ws like the 2nd december's night , and at that time , i ws onlining and my mood ws just fine . the clock shows that it ws just 8 somethingsomething , mama came to me frm her room and said " cepat cabut kening mama , mama nk tdo dh " and i ws like " OHHHHHH , MALAS MALAS ! PEGI LA TDO PEGI PEGI " haha , and that ruined my mood to even KNOW that that midnight ws going to be my brthday . so , she went to her room and slept i guess ? i ws burning inside though . haha , then , i ws trying to fight my anger by listening to some LOUD music and chat with some annoying frnds but i guess it didnt work . i brought the laptop into my room and ws being all emo-ish . haha , i ws chatting with fana and syazwan at that time . without me knowing , teyra texted syazwan abt something that night . aha , i ws chatting with syazwan and all he cn say ws 'jgn la emo :)' , 'b chill la :)' , 'jgn la mcm ni :)' . i dnt know why each word that he typed must have at least one smileyface . haha , buang tebiat maybe ? uhh , so , i ws telling fana abt the cause of my emo-ness and she let out some hints though that i couldnt catch AT ALL . haha , she said , maybe yr mum nk bwk you keluar ke apa ? and i ws all , alaa tkla , selalu midnight kat rumah kot ? tk pnah clbrte kt luar la . so she said , i ada psychic power yg kuat so you better pcya . yerla psychic sgt kan fana kan ? -.- haha . so it ws abt 10 something ? and i heard a knock on my door so when i opened , mama greeted me with a big yaaaawwwnnn . haha , mcm apahal jugak la kan ? so she said , jm la keluar , mama belanja . i ws like "babi sial fana btl la doh" mama cm haa ? haha , so i ws still emo-ing , i said "mls la ma , tkyh la . ddk rumah je" . aceyy padahal i ws happy sikiit la kot ? aha . so mama rushed me to get ready and i sempat texted fana saying that she ws right and i love her fr having a strong psychic power . haha , and she replied saying 'i tau la sbb i sepatutnya pegi ;p blablabla' . okay i ws like 'wtf ?' apa ni ? haha . i ignored what she said so i went down and saw kakak ws sleeping . ONE LOUD BANG came in my head and ear . aha , *bingit la ni* so , i ws like damn it ! lg la aku nk emo kan . got into the car with the thought of we're going with two cars since abg will be heading to ss15 terus lepas cblrtion kan , but abg just put his snooker stick in kakak's car and drove mama's . WEIRD LA SIAL . mampos la . so , we ate at naili's . i ordered french fries JE , know why ? cz fr the past two days i wsnt having a good eating habit . i dnt know why . hm . so , it ws just the three of us . mama asked me to msg kakak bcse she said she left her phone at home . so i texted kakak saying that if she's coming then bwk la phone mama skali . she replied that she ws not coming and she ws saying sorry . haih . yadayadayada , it ws 11.58pm . nothing happened . some thoughts came over me saying that this year is going to be the most insipid one . then it ws 11.59pm and tasha called (: i love you baby . 12.00am sharp lots of people texted me and while i ws reading those msgs and replying those msgs , one woman came up to our table and screamed 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUU !' with the enthusiast that ws shown in her facial expressions . haha , it ws kakak . i ws shocked la kan . then i looked back , i saw my two most fav people , teyra and syazwan . i ws wondering whre were my two othr fav ppl , but oh well , moving on . i ws thinking , CLD THS GET ANY FUCKING BETTER ?! hahah . i hugged teyra and salam-ed syazwan . haha all the presents giving happened and i hugged mama and kakak . nk hug abg ? uhhh . hahaha .so teyra sat beside me and syazwan sat beside teyra . HE WS FREAKING SILENT . malu perhaps ? haha syazwan and teyra got bullied by mama and abg la , sheesh . syazwan kne 'muka mcm chiko , my kitten' la 'tangang pulas2' cse he ws being all shy . haha , teyra kne 'bibik' la , 'tiramisu' la . hahaha . it ws the perfect countdown ever , thank you family and friends ;)

SO , the next day i woke up around 11.35ish bcse syazwan said that he'll be going to sunway arnd 1 . i NEED my own sweet time ya people . haha . got ready , ate a slice of my cake and waited fr syazwan and his daddy . eheh . around 1.30ish they arrived and sunway here we come ;D i ws not at all excited to go to sunway since i dnt think that we will be having any plans , what i meant was i thought that we are just going to sunway fr the sake of my birthday -.- haha . so on the way to sunway , got lectured by En. Nik Azmi , wink wink . hha . he ws talking abt studies la itu la ini la . i ws all ya , haha betul la tu . haha SOPAN PLEASE :) ehehehehe konon timid la . blergh . arrived at sunway then syazwan said that he wanted to go to gasoline bcse he wants to meet his frnds ,

syazwan : jm g gasoline jap , nk jmpa my frnds
me : sapa yr frnds ?
syazwan : ntah , jm jela
me : wtf ? apahal la kau ni .

SUSPICIOUS tak ? haha , then we were just 5 steps away frm gasoline and he ws otp with his 'friend' , then tbetbe he said , EH JM TGK KASUT JAP . i ws like kau ni apahal ? haha . then after recieving a text msg , he said , dh jm pegi , inserted with a annoying grin . i ws dumbfounded oh ! haha , entered the gasoline place and the waiter and waitresses ws showing us to a specific table , i ws like apa ni ? reservations ? HAHA bodoh . then nmpk la ramai2 monkeys with a litted cake , and ada la 'SUPRISEEE !!!!!!!' haha , oh gosh only god knows how much i love you guys at that point . i ws like a tukujut-ed COMEL person lah kan HAHA . so , ate and all , cakapcakap , gelakgelak . then hisyam ckp 'YOU'RE SO LUCKY TO HAVE HIM AS A BOYF' . i mcm wtf ? apahal ? haha , then teyratashababy said that syazwan insisted that he'll pay eveything fr the cake and he wouldnt let my frnds share the money fr the cake . very the aww time la . haha , then we've reached to a decision that we're going to redbox . eheh . after makan , syazwan and i went to secret recipe to just drop our cake since it ws an ice cream cake . OH YA , syazwan's mother bought that cake , THANK YOU AUNTIE :) I SO LOVE YOUR SON AND LOVE YOU FR DELIVERING HIM . again , thank you . eheh . poyo nyaaaa ? i know ;p then we arrived redbox , dealed with a veryvery lanc punya receptionist , sheesh . ahah , well in the end , we had fun right babies ? i am so lucky to have them as my frnds . like seriously . hee . redbox ws 3hours of hard-dancing , loud-singing and pure-joy . haha , it started off with just a small room with 6 persons . then lamalama jd 15 pulak . so we shifted room to a bigger one and apa lg , DANCE DOH ! haha , i ws sweating like a pig ! bt i seriously had my share of fun today . after redbox , most of my friends went home , so i forced syazwan to accompany me to go shopping . hee , we went into like TONNES of shops . he ws exhausted like hell ! haha i cn see . and i kne 'cerewet' frm him . i know b i know ;p lastly i bought a handbag frm voir , two shirts frm dorothy . worth it kot ? haha BUT while i ws trying the shirts out in dorothy . syazwan texted me saying 'b you ni cuba baju ke jahit baju' . haha kne mara mmg best ! so i rushed out . found him in the shop with the muka mntk penyepak face ! hehehe . payed fr the shirts and went searching fr hisyam . haha , so we went fr dinner at carlos and syazwan's mother picked me , syazwan and hisyam up . she sent me first and COINCIDENTLY , mama ws outside doing stuffs that she'd normally do . and so , syazwan's mother introduced herself to mama and salam-ed . happy aku tgk . hahahaha . dh diam . so , the conclusion is , I HAD LOADS OF FUN and i SO LOVE MY FRIENDS . i KNOW that 031208 ws the most greatest day ever , greatest birthday ever and they made it happen fr me . i appreciate it . thank you family and friends and boyfriend . I LOVE YOU .

well , i got a surprise countdown frm my family and a surprise party frm my frnds . wht more cn i ask ? nothing cn top how i felt and how i am feeling at this very moment . tk sangka ada jugak org syg sue . ehehehehehhe .

most of my frnds wished me happy birthday and i am going to type it all exactly down here , enjoy :)

fahmy 8 :
hallow sue...it me fahmy...jst wana wish hepy brthday.be hapy al da tyme yeah... :)

putera :
susu. :) happy upcoming birthday. nanti belanja ice cream okay?

ikram :
Hapy birthday! :)

effy :
Happy Birthday syg!imysm<3 style="font-weight: bold;">ameerul attria :
Happy bdae bbe!

saiful anwar :
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U! HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U! HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 MAK CIK TENGKU SURAYA HANIE. Xp! HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U! U daa 16 jgn menggedik agy. n best of wishes on ur study ye, spm kowt. :)

acap :
Eppy bufday bdk gemok yg pling gemok. Eppy sweet16. 031208

afira :
Happy 16th birthday ! Have a wonderful birthday :D

syazwan :
Oh ya happy birthday gila :D

ajm :
Happy sweet sixteen dear .may all yr wishes come true and god bless you .nurul pn wish jugak .have a great one yea .happy birthday girl [:

amie :
Happy birthday girl.!

ethan ray :
Omg lupe!happy birthday susu haha!have a great2 birthday ya.make sure u have fun.

fana :
Tengku Suraya Haniieeee, happy bdae sayaang ! May god bless you & have a wonderful bdae this year sayang. Thanks syng for evrything, for being there for me! You're such a sweetheart. No doubt (: Happy sweet sixteen again baby ! I really hope that u're gonna have an amazing life :D Sayaang you bnyk bnyk (;

nazeem :
Hey u!happy bday.i igt u nye bday siut.haha.hv a great dy k.present?hmm tgk la cmne.hehe.

amir :
Happy bday sue !!!!

tasha :
Sue cinta , esk i tk dpt pegi pyramid . cs subuh nanti i kne blk kg , my dad kne blk cs ada hal kt kg . Sorry , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUE CINTA

rifdi :
Suee!! happy bday.. Srry lmbt wish.. I bru topup.. Haha.. :)

fara SU :
Sue, happy birthday :)

qairul :
Sue syg sorry lmbt gla wish :(,btw. Hppy brthday sweet 16:D,wishing u to ave a great year full of joy.i love u.

shaliza :
Happy sweet 16 sue!!:D

baby :
Suesuesayang! Happy sweet sixteen. I love u.

helmi :
Weh happy bday. Baru skrng wish. I cnt come to sunway sbb ada checkup kt hosp

syamim :
Happy birthday ! Srry lmbt wish . Btw , syamim here . Yr junior . Asyireen's sister . Haha :D

yaya :
Eh! Baru teringat! Birthday hani! Happy birthday taw! Yaya nk cal tp kdit tk ckup. Adeh. Hope hani makin cmel and gdluck! =D

adib :
hello gundu ! Happy birthdy ! :D

iqbal :
Ow..u hepy bufday..he2

aimeen :
Oh you . Happy birthday .

teyra :
I wanna be the last to wish u happy bday gf (: . Wishing u another wonderful year of happiness and joy . I hope all ur bday dreams and wishes come true . And thx for today . I love u alot !

these were the msgs that ive recieved . the rest ada yg call , comment . i still love you guys . thanks fr remembering honeys . AND a special thanks to myspace too bcse it has reminded lot of my frnds about my birthday . hehehehe , myspace forever ! ;p poyo nyaa -.- hahaha

ahah , i think that this is my longest post . a special special day indeed . they made it happen . love them loads <3

some people want it all

2008-12-02T19:20:00.000+08:00

"but everything means nothing , if i aint got you"

haha , currently listening to this song (: hee . okay dh . okay ! ive been neglecting my blog fr about 2 days i think ? eventhough i'll come online every single day but updating my blog is the last on my weekly list . haha . bt since tmr is my SUPER SUPER SWEET16 birthday , i'll try to manage one blog . haha . so , ive been reminding everyone about my birthday lately , ehehhe saja ngadangada . alaa i mean pls guys , cnt you remember this sweet cute little girls' birthday ? HAHAHA . i know im crapping so lets start the real deal . eyy ? haha

yesterday bee called me while i ws in mama's room . he ws acting all 'budget nk prank call tp suara cm la org tk knal' . haha , so i ws like 'BEEEEEEEE !!!!!!' hahaha , he said tht he ws coming to subang , well he shifted to wangsa maju :( stupid goat . left us all here fr whaaat ??! haha dh dh , so i went to see bee td dkat taipan . it ws all hisyam , rifdi , imran , zaf , helmi , bee and me . cool kan sorang je pmpuan ? well i ddnt know that he told one girl about it and it ws me . i thought he told the others . so wtv la kan , bnde dh jd . haha , rifdi picked me up and ws headed to helmi's house . it ws bloody hell hot maan !! picked helmi up , and straight off to taipan . hahah . soo , we went to eat at strawberry's cse hisyam ws too busy nk makan la apa la -.- all 5 of us teman dia makan sorang . selfish ! eheheheheh , OH YA ! helmi kan just got discharged frm the hospital , so he ws not acting all well YET . haha , he ws walking like a dying man you know . it ws funny enough to see our helmi acting like that . well , as most of you all know , he is the most HYPER-EST of all ! go jump here la , jump there la . haha now ? like what he said , 'aku jln pn plg laju 5 km sejam' hahah . dosa dgn aku lg (: well , after that , they all wanted to jamm but music walk ws having some technical difficulties , so , headed to summit JUST FR THE REASON NK JAMM . haih . pegipegi , that place dh booked . haha stupid asses . wasted our time here and thre so i reached home around 4.30pm . goodgirl i say ? ;) wink wink . haha .

so now , all that i cn think of is , who will wish me on my midnight ? how i wonder . haha drama drama . and tmr idk wtf is my plan bt just to go to pyramid . haih . boring you think ? hm i just hope that it will not be dull and insipid ? well , we'll just see then tonight how many happy birthday sue (: i love yous , will i get , hahahaha

these past few weeks is full with ups and downs fr me . ive met new frnds , i am contacting my old friends back and the ones that are closer is now closer . haha , ive lost some too . wink wink . haha bodoh . one of my new friends , amie ;D

the rest tu ado ahh . haha sue tupid . dh diam . uh i dnt know what else to say , OH YA ethan promised me nk bwk clbrte brthday ! haha on you ya ethan . stupid , well not actually promise la . haha , dh diam .

bye loves later out .

B.u dh bgn?

2008-11-29T16:07:00.000+08:00

okay , so . i think yesterday has the most number of interesting conversations ever . haha , starting with last last night , this happened in mama's bedroom .

me : maaaa ! hani dh lama tk keluar taaaaaauuu :(
mama : haaaa nk start dhla tu !
me : jm la lepak carlos maaaa , jom jommm ! hani dh lama tk keluarrr

*she ws trying to change the subject*

mama : cpat , cari uban mama cpaaaaaat !
me : apa mama ni ? hani baru cari mnggu lepas , tk sempat tumbuh baru mama nk suruh cri lagi , adoiii
mama : dh tumbuh daaaaahh , cepat la b ! (mama calls me baby since i ws small -.-)
me : MALAAS ! tamau tamau !
mama : cepat laaaa
me : dh laa , g tdo ma byeeee *smbil picking up the laptop and heading to my room*
mama : haa tgk tuu , tuuuuu je la yg dia tau nyaa
me : nyte maaaaaa ! hahaha , NYTE mama baik ckp nyte kat hani
mama : get ouuuuutttt ! malas malas ! buang tebiat ke apa ni ??!

*i ws laughing like a mad person*

me : fine tknk ckp nyte . mama tk syg hani !
mama : hani yg tk syg mama !
me : whateverrrrr ...

okay dh malas nk lyn mama so i just went to my room , no questions asked ! haha

and this happened when i ws sleeping , abg woke me up with his monstrous voice screaming from the bottom of the stairs "HANIIII !! HANI !!!"

and so i took my phone and saw 6 misscalls and 3 msgs . haha . talk about tidur mati here .

*i came down with the horrible face and blurblur pnya attitude*

abang : HANI ! kak dah kt luar tuuuu .
me : pastu kenapa ?
abang : keluar la !
me : asal hani pulak ? kenapa tk abg ?
abang : laaa kak dah nk keluar pegi carlos laa ! dgn hani !
me : HAH ?! (sambil tutup mulut) hani tk mndi lagiii ! :O
abang : ya allah budak ni .....

hahah sooo i went to bathe and just siap2 so that kak dah wont tunggu lamalama . ehe . wtv wtv havock havock , so bfre anyone knew it , i ws on my way to carlos and lepak with mama *muka angkat2 kening* cool kan ? hee .

anndd that ws the end of the interesting conversations (:

OKAY so here's the stressing part , i ws at carlos , and i texted syazwan ;

"I tgh lepak carlos ngn mama . Cool gla -.- oh dhla lupa i . Suckness la youh"

haha i said he fgrttn me bcse he did not msg me or call me at all ! blergh . okay , back to the stressing story , he replied apa taau ?

"oh.I dkt 15"

wtf tak ? ergh , see , this is what happens when i act all nice to him . EVERYTIME ! well , usually , when i act like i always act , he'll complain . haha , bcse i use to be all rough to him . MEANING (dnt EVER get the wrong idea *winkwink*) i like to bully him . heheh . so when i ws being nice , he ws being all malasmalas nk layan . fucked up btl . SO , i replied ,

"K"

hehehehehe , geram siaal !! then i got

"i nk grk crls dh"

blergh , wtv . i tk reply pn . hee . so i went back , ws heading to auntie mazni's house and i got

"u dh balik ?"

and i didnt reply , and so he didnt care . fuucckkk . haih . i ws too stressed up abt him . eheh . so wtv . and when i called him acting all tkde mood THEN he ws saying sorry . he likes to say sorry -.- well im tired you know , blurdy tired . hmmm . end .

SO today nothing interesting has happened YET . hmm . wtv wtvvvvv .

bye , toodles . loves . later .

lovebug

2008-11-28T11:20:00.000+08:00

good morning peeps .
i didnt sleep fr the whole day today ! and now im listening to yudesh singing the lovebug song . haha , okay yudesh , you nyanyi sedap -.- ehhe but ada off tune sikiiit la . HAHAH . i am so bored fuck !

currently waiting fr syzwn to get up which i think lg 5 to 6 hrs lg . ular btl -.- suckness la you ni b . haha .

oh ya , ive finished organising my pictures and all . haha , ws not having anything to do , so yea . AND ive just realised that i am having this bad bad bad habit . haih , gotta stop bfre its too late :s

speechless , bye .

because i bring the fire

2008-11-28T02:29:00.000+08:00

au naturale ;)
oh ya , thats bibi , teyra's kitten .

greetings , it is currently 2:29am and my shoulder is killing me . haih . im so bored . i havent go out fr like 2 or 3 days ? cn you imagine how dull is my life ? blergh , *suckness . haha .

so , syazwan is forcing me to go out on my birthday WHICH i am so berkeras saying i dnt wnt to go . ehehehehe , tknk la , nk emo ;p friends yg ku sayangi , i love you all but idk , i still love you . hahaha , by emo-ing abt my brthday got me scolded by many of my frnds . sheesh , chill la . haha . dh diam .

OH ya , i have this thought that i wnt to post a blog about my lovelife here , but malu lah . haha so nk cmpur dgn bestfs frm stndard 1 till now . enjoy (:

standard 1 : bestf - farah naquiyah , and tk ingat .

standard 2 : bestf - wan nur farhana , melissa , aannd tk ingat .

standard 3 : bestf - wan nur farhana , shazlena .

standard 4 : bestf - shazlena , fatin nabilah .

standard 5 : bestf - shazlena , tk ingat

standard 6 : bestf - shazlena , sharifah shaheeda , atirah razalli , shazmin
boyf - shahrul helmi

form 1 : bestf - teyra , shazlena
boyf - adrin , zelfann , nazrin , kevin

form 2 : bestf - teyra , shazlena
boyf - hazwan , hazman

form 3 : bestf - teyra , effy , shazlena
boyf - nasri , aimeen , amar

form 4 : bestf - teyra , tasha , baby , fana , tiqot , qairul , shasha , samira , sarah , amir , hisyam , azrin , helmi , rifdi , chui shen , yan ling .
boyf - akmal , nazeem , syazwan .

hahaha , i know this seems like kind of showing off but i dnt intend to actually . i just want to come clean to all my readers abt my life ((: pls dnt misunderstood me .

so , as you cn see up there i have the most number of bestfs this year . awkward , i know . bt wtv lah , i still love them . ehehehehe .

okay i am SO bored only god knows how i feel ! blergh blergh blergh !! haiihhh , i wnt to eat ohh ! bt idk why bt today there're a lot of ppl who called me gemuk :S hahaha , eventhough i know it is truee bt still !! be considerate people ! ehehe . well , lately ive been onlining late night and sleeping in the siangsiang hari . haha , mcm jantan i know -.- syazwan pn ckp " kalah i " hahaha , i know b . sometimes i have a thought to myself that maybe im a "tak jadi" punya species . haha , cz my attitude is very rough you know . kind of embarassed about it but i just cant act all malumalu , and timid and all . i just cant ! haha , well wtv lah . i love who i am now :))))

idk what to say anymore . sheesh . loves then . later .